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The year was 1994. I was two years old and my parents had been searching everywhere for a kitten for me. They promised they'd bring one home that day. Well the pound wouldn't let them take a kitten home entil they did a background check on them. I was in the park crying. Then this other girl there said, "Don't cry, I have lots of kittens at home. You can have one if you like" My parents herd this and went to her house. Sure enough there were kittens everywhere. But there was one little kitten. The smallest of the litter of kittens there. She was pitch black, had flees and was shaking. She walked over to my mother, and Mom picked her up. The kitten just stayed in my mother's arms shaking. We took that kitten home and called her Samantha. Samantha was a different cat. She would only eat a certain brand and flavor of cat food. She would only use a certain type of cat litter, and she sat wherever she wanted, reguardless of what Mom said. But she always sat with the family when we were watching t.v. together. She would come in all of our rooms every night and sleep with us. She was always watching us, silently, and didn't want us to know. Samantha lived for twelve long years, and today, March 15, 2008, was her last day alive. We put her to sleep. Reason why, was that she had a stroke and was completly paralized on her left side, and one of her eyes was dialated completly. She couldn't stand, walk, eat, she couldn't do anything. We put her down because we didn't want her to sufer. She wouldn't be happy having to be hand feed, she was always independent. So as she goes off to her peace I say this:
"I'm not sure if there is a God. Or any form of God. Or a being out there watching us. I'm also not sure if there is a place out there for us to go when we die. If there is I know for a fact Samantha is there. Or if she is just going to be reincarnated. If her soul does drift to another living thing, then I hope I find it. Samantha has been with me since I was a little girl, and I'm thankful I found her. I'm thankful she was my first pet, and my first friend. I will never forget her. The name Samantha, will always hold a special place for me. Never will I forget that name. I just hope now that your ok. I just wish I could have done more for you. I just wish I could have done more the night before to take care of you. To make your last night here better. I wish so many things, but I know they won't happen. I guess I'm trying to say, I'm sorry. Sorry I couldn't stop this from happening to you"