I have no idea what i have become.
I was a fun person once back 3 years ago.
Now i hold these tormenting thoughts in my head that i have created.
I hate people for no reason.
Im not happy cause i dont get what i want most in life.
Everyday i want to be with the one i love but that cant happen because he has a life too and i cant be in it.
He has a very important thing to do in his life and that is to keep his grades up and make me happy.
I dont accept the fact but i want to see him everyday and i want to be in his arms with care and love.
My heart is engraved with the name gianni.
But thats not my fault that i want to be with him everyday and every second.
With these crazy feelings of mine,all im doing is driving him away to another life.
The more i cause this depression problem the more i will crive him nuts and one day he's going to be so sick of it and just go.
Im so sorry but this is something that i have become and im dyeing to get out of this stupid thing i have become.But its so hard on the other hand becuase i have girls to deal with.
I want him to love me not those other stupid bitches!
Im in love with gianni and to lose him is like loosing a puppy u care about alot.or even like loosing a family member.
Im in love with gianni but someday i might not have him because of this monster within me.
I create the most bullshit about me being sad and s**t.
i cant take it anymore i want to be that girl!
I want to be happy!
i want to be loved and cared for!
Can someone out their help me deal with this problem?
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