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What really goes on with me.
I have no idea what i have become.

I was a fun person once back 3 years ago.

Now i hold these tormenting thoughts in my head that i have created.

I hate people for no reason.

Im not happy cause i dont get what i want most in life.

Everyday i want to be with the one i love but that cant happen because he has a life too and i cant be in it.

He has a very important thing to do in his life and that is to keep his grades up and make me happy.

I dont accept the fact but i want to see him everyday and i want to be in his arms with care and love.

My heart is engraved with the name gianni.

But thats not my fault that i want to be with him everyday and every second.

With these crazy feelings of mine,all im doing is driving him away to another life.

The more i cause this depression problem the more i will crive him nuts and one day he's going to be so sick of it and just go.

Im so sorry but this is something that i have become and im dyeing to get out of this stupid thing i have become.But its so hard on the other hand becuase i have girls to deal with.

I want him to love me not those other stupid bitches!

Im in love with gianni and to lose him is like loosing a puppy u care about alot.or even like loosing a family member.

Im in love with gianni but someday i might not have him because of this monster within me.

I create the most bullshit about me being sad and s**t.

i cant take it anymore i want to be that girl!

I want to be happy!

i want to be loved and cared for!

Can someone out their help me deal with this problem?

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