So, I was having a pretty good day, what with the oh-so-mighty Ernesto getting me out of school and all, till I decided to look up how well SC did on the SAT. Once again, we're 49th, with only Hawaii and the District of Columbia below us. I wasn't really surprised by this, but then I came across an article about a kid in my grade (in my school) who made a perfect score on the SAT. It went on to talk about how he'd already taken 5 APs (and gotten 5s on all of them) and was currently taking 7 more. He's never gotten a "B" or lower in his life, plays tennis, does cross country, etc., etc. Basically, he's superman in the form of a 17-year-old boy that goes to Academic Magnet.
It started to make me think. I could have 5 APs under my belt as well, and 6 more on the way, if I had really tried. Instead I've only completed 3 and am taking 5 this year. I could have done a lot better on my SAT if I had studied more, and maybe hadn't gotten buzzed the night before. I could have played soccer my freshman year and up, but instead I'm in Martial Arts Club, organizing pizza days (which I can't really complain about, because I love that club, but still).
I just feel so... useless. I mean, this year I had finally convinced myself that I might just make it to a good college with scholarships paying for most of it. But now I realize that all these colleges are going to compare me to everyone else in my grade, which includes wonder-boy. And compared to everyone else at my high school, one of the top in the nation, I'm one of the "dumb" kids. It really makes a person feel completely stupid and worthless.
So yea. I'm going to go listen to my music and play my guitar because it seems like those are the only things I can do right these days.
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