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October 16th – Well we are nearing my last four days before the change so says Raitsu. The training today started off easy but was odd. We went to the waterfall and started meditating. Raitsu says that it is to keep myself calmed down and to connect with my inner animal.
After that we had to pack everything up and search for another camp even deeper into the jungle. With that we went and seted up camp near the Blood Tree in a decent clearing near a cliff where we can see the beach and ocean. Raitsu hardly talked much during the trek but then again she is still ticked at the fact that she has to train me so she gave me a nickname, "Pup" to point out that she was baby sitting more than training from what it seems to her.
When night hit we cooked dinner which was the same thing it has been for the past week meat but this time it was a kind of bird found in the jungle. As we sat there I asked her about the first change and what was so big about it. She looked at me and laughed. She then explained, "the first change is the change that proves if you are worthy to be of my kind or not. Pretty much lets say this there are two possibilities that you will die." I asked her why are there two possibilities? She just laughed again, "Are you stupid or something? Do you know what your body has to do to change into something else? Your bones will change and you skin, hell even alot of your body parts will shift into different places while rapidly growing fur. If your body is weak then your own body will tear itself up and then your dead." I then asked her what about the possibility. She turned away as she said this, "Well along with your bodys change so will your mind depending on how much will you have during it. Your mind will either turn full beastial and you will beserk everywhere and after blood so you will kill without stopping just to sate that unquinchable thirst and unfillable hunger. If that happens then I will kill you without hesitation.
I was stunned. So if i live through it, if i lose my mind in the process I will die reguardless. I then asked her how her first change went. She just got up and started to walk away then turned her head, "Im still here aren't I you stupid Pup." And with that she walked into the shadows.

October 18th – The past two days of training were all about doing some running and fighting exercizes while meditating during breaks. I didn't get really tired cause of the meditating which helped alot. Pretty much she was training my body to take the change and training my mind to keep my sanity afterwords. Reason why I didn't write yesterday was because she needed me to meditate and make an actual conection with my inner beast.
It was weird while I was meditating, I actually started feeling something. All my senses started to enhance highly. I heard the Tikis at the bottom of the hill doing whatever the hell they do. I could smell the food from out camp and i was about half a mile away from the camp. Then I woke up from the trance and there was Raitsu, "well i think you are done for the evening don't you have to write in that book or something?" I explained to her that it was a journal to help out anyone who has suffered what I have. She just laughed, "You do know that if you do survive this you cannot write another journal about this cause after this we have to go on a long trip." I asked her where we were going, after this she just told me that it is a secret and I will know if I survive the change.
October 19th – Well this is my last entree. One I am out of paper on this thing and two I might not live to make another one. I asked Raitsu to take this journal to the Twins after I finish this entree for safe keeping and to give it to anyone who suffered the same that i have. You reading this means that either you are gifted with this curse and you came to the twins that or this journal was stolen or you probably beat the crap out of the two and was lucky enough to get away. But if the curse and you survive your first change ask the twins for one more trial before living your newly changed life.