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How do I channel these crippling feelings into something good or helpful?


is it this caged feeling again?

Like nothing has any room to breathe or grow?


All I have.... are my thoughts... voices of memories and pain that just keep punching

No place to physically write anything down like this...


Now I remember why I made an account on this website, and it's absolutely awful.


Where are all of these feelings supposed to go?

Things would be so much more bearable if I just had some kind of purpose to make things better, so that less people ever have to go through s**t like this...

But yeah. What can I even do?

People are always helping me when I keep falling to the floor.

Just... let me eat the dirt.

Watch me fail, so you can do ******** better...


Sometimes I just don't know if I'm even making a difference, despite my efforts.

I know they say that they like me... but only that one side that isn't disgusting...


If they knew all of me, if they saw all of the ugly things I do alone... I'd truly be alone...


Sometimes I want to be alone.... but sometimes, it feels like I'll die if I have to live with myself all by myself, any longer..

I've changed so much, so fast, that I've become a monster that has... so many twisted truths.. and more faces than I can even count... I can't even tell what's a mask, or if they're even masks to begin with...


... Perhaps I really have no idea what to do with myself...


So many people have given up on me, that it's hard to keep going on like this.


I'm tired of hanging on to this flashy sack of flesh that seems to serve no good purpose.

I can't even take care of it right, no one even has the time to even help.

And these ******** emotions are just... driving me into the ******** wall....

What am I even doing right now!?