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I haven't been doing that great, not gonna lie.
Ever since Tuesday night when I relapsed back into smoking cigarettes, I've been an absolute mess.
But then again, my doctor took me off my pill that I use to help me sleep, which could have been contributing to it since I hadn't had very good sleep for a while.
Also, the heat. The horrible, wretched heat. How is anyone supposed to sleep, or better yet, live in an apartment without air conditioning in this absolute crap? sweatdrop
I changed my bed sheets, which I hope will help.
On a totally different note, I'm not sure what to think about my and Evan's relationship right now. He's a totally nice guy, but... we just don't see eye to eye on a lot of things. Not to mention he can be REALLY annoying sometimes. He keeps talking about us getting MARRIED someday... like what the hell? The tables have turned, definitely.
I'm slowly starting to feel like myself again, very slowly. I'm spending less time endlessly browsing Facebook, and doing productive things instead. This helps me to not feel so lonely or jealous, which is EXACTLY how Facebook is meant to make you feel! It's ridiculous, honestly. Can we just go back to MySpace?
I love YouTube. I think that in my darkest times, I can just watch a few videos about things that I want to know more about, like self care or cleaning, and it just really brightens up my day. I highly recommend it if you're in a slump like I am sometimes.
Also, music. Music is love, music is life. Good music can help so much when you're down!
And with that, I should get into bed. Night night. heart