I am still in my 10th year of being a Young-ling 1st level vampire. Days are shorter to me everything goes at a fast rate. Sometimes my days blur together. I feel empty and shallow. Even if i put on a facade and act all happy and cheery i don't feel it! I feel Cold. Always Cold no warmth even with the love of my family which now seems distant. The only things that grow now are my patience and my hunger. Not just my hunger for blood but my hunger for knowledge and my hunger for the hunt. I feel more antsy than i use to. I always have to be busy. I have to keep moving! I can not stop!
I am on my own no master to train me yet. How do i know about all of this you ask?! That's a fair question. I was told. In the night A Master appeared to me, a hauntingly beautiful man, and told me all i was to know. He told me he would come back when the time was right. His blood red eyes dance in my head night after night! His tall muscular physic stalk my mind. And his Slender(but not to slender) face send me into my imagination. There is so much i'd like to tell you about the Master but i'm afraid that's not what i came to talk about.
I wish i felt more connected with this small seemingly more pitiful world! But there is some invisible wall that keeps me away. My parents its like i cant even hear them there soft murmurs in my head. i wonder how they see me?! Can they tell i am stuck and i cannot break free?! My twin sister does she even notice anything different?! My little brother and my little sister do they see the change in me too? All murmurs in my head and i cant turn up the volume. Sometimes it frightens me. Other times i can be found sitting in a dark corner reading a book. Or just wandering around lost.
Cold i am so Cold. I shall forever seek warmth but i shall only find it in the blood i drink.