RE: Crap (or as the French would say~ Crappe)
Yes, more whining. Bad-bad, sorry. I know.
I am still trying to make jokes...sleep when I can...and eating wayyyy more than I should, I did make it through Valentine's day & *special thanks to: heart David, V, Kenshin, and Kakashi ! (although last night's experience at "The Green Pickle" pub was CRAP.
(Plus I half-way tripped when I did not realize the room dipped down like a step on my first [and last] time to eat there!
It has been a very trying week.
My mom is in the hospital and was transferred to a rehabilitation hospital for therapy to walk and will remain there for God only knows. My dad, (who is dying, and already in at home hospice) had to be sent to a place I don't care for and has now mentally deteriorated to the point where it totally freaks me out and I find it hard to handle. He is very mean and has mentally lost it, but he still recognizes me, and I am still trying to visit and spend time there. I have their house and things to look after too and I live a few hours away, but that is okay. I have an older sister and she only lives a few blocks from their house and she helps. They have GREAT neighbors too. Some of them I grew up playing with their kids. My mom is doing really well...my dad is not so good. At least they do not have any dogs or cats right now AND I have someone to care for mine while I am away, too. I think this will be a rather difficult time, and I still have school and exams, and groceries to go get (at this moment), and "life-things" that will continue to go on from the basics to the crappe. I am always grateful that things are not worse. I usually feel like I could do better for people (often including myself). I'm not drinking or smoking and no coping escape there, so that is really good. Still, sometimes it seems like it will drag me down. I fight. I pray. I breathe. I realize I am okay and I am blessed and then the crap isn't really crap anymore.
VERY Special thanks to the Bloodvain sisters who are becoming my lil sis's as well. BIG HUGS. xp xd
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