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Twists
I was feel'n kinda bad...(not because of all the snow & cold with ice and another day home from school, doing this instead of sleep), my X has 200 friends on Facebook that he was showing me today so I cud see some mutual old friends, and most of his friends are females but I only have a select group of friends. It just made me question whether I was not as good or something~ not as good a friend. Out of nowhere TWO guy friends (who had liked me) that I had not talked to, popped up out of the blue! The one guy is not really a friend, but I had a chance to be with him and turned him down and he pops up and shows me a stream from China, where he is now and went on my last birthday! That is great for him. What have I accomplished as far as my goals & dreams? I feel like I have just sat on my butt!! I have stopped smoking. I am still in school doing well (just trying not to smoke & I even DREAM that I am!) and trying to hang in there with no real income. Hmmm, but I have loving fam & friends who actually do love me. I just have two modes, as my other friend said tonight about himself: Chatterbox and MUTE. (I call mine "stealth mode" ninja but hey). I wish I was in China but not with the Swedish jerk! Arkgggggghhh. I know I am doing the right thing by no relationship with him then, and now. Okay I am done. Just had to vent. smile
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