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today was the hardest day of my life, i had to thell the one person i love most in this universe that we couldnt move on together right now, that i had to be on my own for a little, figure out how to fix everything and then we could forever be together. but its so complicated, my mom and dad hate him no matter how much i love him, i would take a bullet for him, i wish they understood that. they think he is a bad influence and mentaly abuseing me, but every time i see him i cant help but smile no matter how much torture they put me thru every tiem i even mentioned his name i still find reason to believe he is my one and only. you might be thinking, why would she do this then? because i was dyeing inside, i might be smileing around him but every other secon was living hell for me, i tried and tried to be happy alone but its impossible and my parents would bash on him and me saying how bad he was for me and wondering ifi need to go to therapy. i was about to go and kill myself so ilet him know that we have to wait so my parents will warm up to him... it sounds cruel with the pain he is going thru but i know its wont be too long. when i turn 18 we wil have eachother again, but who knows it might even be sooner, if my parents accept him beofore then....I miss him... even thoguh i cant cry.... i do.... even thoguh i act like i dont care, .... i care every millasecond.... i just wish he wasnt going thru so much because of all of this.....