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you were everything i had..
you were my sister..
my best friend..

im sorry i wasnt there for you
im sorry i couldnt hv stopped you
but didnt.
this is all my fault.
if i was there..
if i paid attention to how bad you were hurting..
i would hv been there.
but i wasnt

im sorry you life ended like this
im sorry tht i wont evr c u again.
im sorry you wont evr hv a family
or children
or evn c happiness..

your life was ended tragically like this because of me.
i put u through all of this.
it is my fault
so blame me.

i will miss your smile;
your laugh;
running around and acting like a blubbering idiot w/u..
i will miss your hugs;
you kisses;
your cold skin whn you get out of the rain n poke me.

but most of all i will miss being w/u.
i will miss being able to hold u whn u r crying
or catching you whn u fall.

the thoughts of you are encased in the darkness tht is now my mind.
it tourchers me n wont let me escape.

i will b reuinted with u soon.
i promise you that.
but to you
promises are nothing but lies that you tend to keep if u choose.
but my promises are real.

im sorry...
and i will miss you...
i heart u katie bear..