My left eye glowed red, with the symbol that looked like a crow or some bird in it. I felt a lot of pain then. I fell to my knees, and one hand. My other hand was clutching onto the left part of my face. I screamed in shear agony. âLelouch!â She cried leaning at my side. âLelouch, whatâs wrong!?â She helped me to my feet, but even then I couldnât stand. She helped me into a chair, me leaning on her where I was hardly able to walk or stand up. âDamn it!â I mumbled. I couldnât think or see straight. âLelouch?â She asked me. âthereâs no reason to worry.â I told her. âIt happens whenever I take the mask off after a long period of time.â âThen why didnât it happen yesterday when-â she started. âBecause I was so angry to react to my left eye more visable.â I said. She was confused. She didnât understand what was special about my eye. I would have to explain my past to her for her to understand. âWhen I was littleâŚâ I began, sorrow seemed to fill me up. âI wasâŚalone. I had no one. No friendsâŚand no family. I was always alone. Always wondering around in the world alone.â She listened closely to me as I spoke my story. âI knew very little about my family. I know my father never saw me. I donât know if he left my mother when she was pregnant or not though. He was a mortal though. My mother,â I said. âAs not to see me, made ma a present of my first mask! Even after that, though she took care of me as any other âcaringâ mother would, she still feared me. My face was my motherâs fear and loathing. When I was three years old she gave me a locket.â I paused briefly before continuing. âShe had my cloths packed, and a small teddy bear packed in a bag.â
She was still confused but she had to understand everything to understand my power and the reasons I had it. âI asked her where we were going, and she said to see my grandma. But somehow I knew it wasnât true deep down inside. I looked at the locket as we walked, and tried to read the inscription. But I had not yet learned to read or write.â I explained, looking at my hands. âAny time I asked her to disciper it she said now was not the time. Soon we came to a park where we sat to rest. I didnât have my mask on though.â I glanced at the half white mask in the floor. âAs I played, happily, I failed to realize one thing, that would change, and wound me forever.â I think she knew what had happened that had hurt me. âI picked out a flower for my motherâŚ.a rose. But, as I turned to give it to herâŚI realizedâŚshe was gone.â I said my voice betraying me as it started to show tears were coming. âI was alone. All I had left was a locket, my cloths, and bear. But also my anger, and tears. I sat on the bench where my mother had been sitting, and weeped while tears up the rose I had held to give my mom.â That women had never even been worthy of the title âmomâ. Melissa reached out and pulled me into her arms. She layed me against her, and petted my head as I weeped. âThen a girl around my age came up and took my hand and then she asked âwhatâs the matter, little boy?â Her mother came up as well and asked âAre you lost, little boy? Whereâs your mother?ââ I cried. ââSheâs abandoned me. She doesnât love me.â I told them. The girls mother, not knowing what I looked like, lifted my head up.â I said. I was growing to be angry at this point, full of rage. âWhen she didâŚshe and her daughter screamed. The mother snatched her daughter away, and slapped me across the face. âAND ITâS NO WONDER WHY!!â she yelled at meâI made a fist. âShe stormed off. Leaving me in tears. I knewâŚI knew why she had slapt me. She was afraid and discussted by my face. I reached into the bag my mom had packed me, and took out my bear.â I said. âIt was my only friend, and companion. It couldnât walk, nor talk. But it could confort me. I hugged it close, and weeped even harder as my right cheer throbbed in pain. Sitting for hours thinking how could my mother abandon me? How could she leave me to starve? To reliy on myself to live when I was so small? To fined off on my own? How could my Fae mother leave me to die like this?â Melissa looked at me. She understood even better now that she knew what my mother was. Fae were extremely beautiful women. But a fae and mortal didnât always turn out right when it came to reproduction. My face being deformedâŚshe knewâŚwas the result of my fae mother and mortal father not turning out right. My half heart of a demon and angelâŚand my deformed faceâŚwas the result of there reproduction.
âI looked in the bag again, and my mothers first present to me: the mask. A motherâs fear and loathing. I placed it in the backpack, put it on my back, held my bear close, and started trying to find a way home. But while wondering around I came to realizeâŚI didnât know my way home!â I cried out. Rage filled me up. âMy mother, knew I wouldnât know how to get home where I was so small! I was alone in the world! I hand NO ONE! I walked the god be damned streets, being yelled and slapt at because of my appearance! I took the damn slaps! I took the beatings! I knew my mother wouldnât care if I got hurt! For she had abandoned me! I was and would always be a motherâs or anyoneâs FEAR AND LOUTHING!â She pulled me close, and held me as close to her as she could manage. âSoon I came upon someone so dicusted by my appearance to me he took his sword, and gave me a big gash in my arm.â I said. âBleeding, and wounded I struggled away from town. Losing conciousnes from lack of blood, and struggling so much as to stand. âMy lifeâs going to endâ was all I was and could think. Everything had gone blurry, and I collapsed, and I knew then I wouldnât live. Truly I didnât care anymore. I was better off dead. No one wanted nor loved me. They wouldnât even notice I was dead.â
Now she had a new questionâŚhow was it that I was alive if I had been hurt so bad? âWhen I woke up,â I continued, âI lay in a bed. It was warm and confrotable. I could hear a fire burning in the fireplace. I didnât understand. Was this heaven? Or was it hell? Or a mere dream?â I asked myself. It all had appeared that way during that time. âI, still clutching my bear, got out of the bed, and went to look around. I was in a palace...I knew that much. I wondered into a study..." This was where things got better for meâŚ.for the time. âI see you finally decided to wake up.â A voice greeted me. I looked to the desk and found where Jareth sat.â I said. She remembered Ana blabbing about Jareth and me mentioning to her. âHe told me I had been unconscious for three days, but I was fine. He decided to teach me so I cold get somewhere in life. I asked him to deciper the lockets inscriptionâŚâ âAndâŚâ Melissa encouraged me. âHe deciphered it.â I said. âHe then handed me the locket after words. I left the room without a word. I stayed in my room the entire day, crying. Jareth left me be. I spent the next few days with him as he taught me much. Must, reading, writing, everythingâŚeven subduction. Jareth became my only friend. My only companion.â I said. âOne day while wondering around alone, without my mask, things got bad for me. It was early in the morning, and people were starting to come out. While I was walking a plane crashed in town. As it came crashing towards the ground I swore I heard a womenâs voice call to me. The voice sounded like it was coming from the plane.â
She stared at me confused. Obviously she didnât understand the voice thingâŚ.she would though. âI felt complied to go see where the plane crashedâŚso I did. The piolet was dead when I got there. ButâŚI found a capsule in the plane storage, while searching for the voice. I placed my hand on it, and in a burst of bright light the capsule came open.â I said. âA green haired, yellow eyed girl around my age, was completely tied up, she looked at me, and fell to the ground. I didnât understand why she was tied up, but as I heard voiceâs approaching I knew it wasnât good.â Yes of course a girl tied up in a capsule couldnât be good. âI hid but was discovered by the military. They grabbed the girl, and slammed me into a wall. âHow unfortunate. If you werenât at the crash site, you wouldâve lived. But since you came into contact with that girl, we canât let you go.â the commander told me. But he also said I had not reason to live because of my uglyness.â I told her. âWhat is the military planning? Who is that girl?â I said to them. I demanded answers.â
Iâm not sure anyone would blame me for wanting answers like I did. âYou have no right to know. You did give us a good fight, though.â He said to me. He raised his gun then said, âbutâŚyour future just ended.ââ I said. âAs I heard the trigger get pulled, I looked away and close my eyes tightly then I heard the girl scream. âDONâT KILL HIM!â I opened my eyes up enough to see her shield me, and take the bullet to the forehead. I caught her as she fell into my arms, bleeding, and unconsciousâŚif not already dead.â I never did understand why she had saved me. I donât think I ever would find out. âShe shielded me. Why? âNowâŚitâsâŚyou turn.â what was all this about this girl that they captured her, and then killed her? I told them they were rotten. All of them. Was this it for me!? HelplessâŚunable to do anything!?â I said. âI fell to my hands and knees. Then that girlâs hand moved, and took mine.â Melissa was surprised. This part had scared me too. She was dead! There was not chance she could of survived! âIn a bright light it seemed I was in a different dimention. Everything around me was electric blue with white strikes of lighting. Then I heard a womenâs voice. âWhatâŚ.what the heck!? Who is this!â I cried âYou donât want toâŚend it hereâŚâ I heard her say to me. I was falling, and I saw a girl with her back to me, naked, she turned her head towards me. âIs it that girl? No way!âŚWhat is this?â I thought. âit seems you have a reason to liveâŚcan you live if you have power?ââ I paused to take a short breath. ââThis is a contract. Iâll give you power if you grant a wish of mine.â She said. âIf you accept this contract, you will live among humans not following the reasons they follow. A different providence. A different time. A different life.â She said to me. I saw a man standing, staring out a window. âThat isâŚthe emperor!â I said. âThe power of the kind will isolate you. The mythologyâŚthe rebirthâŚthe connection of Ragnorok? If youâre prepared to face thatâŚâ She said.â
This was the name the girl had given the powerâŚit was actually called by a different name: Geass. ââPrepared? Very well. Iâll accept that contract! I accept the terms of your contract!â I told her. Everything around me was back to normal. The girl had let go of my hand, and lay motionless again. I started to laugh a little despite the pain in my left eye.â I said. âWhat should a boy do if he hates humanityâŚsociety?â I asked them âare you out of your mind?!â They cried taken back by what I had said. âWhatâs wrong?â I asked themâ Now I would tell her what was so special about my eye. ââArenât you going to shoot me? Iâm only a hidous inhuman being after all.â I told themâ I said this with a chuckle. ââOr did you realizeâŚthat you can only shootâŚif you are prepared to be shot?â I told them. âI, Erik (Lelouch) Phoenix Legrange, order you!â I said to them revealing my left eye, which I had had covered. They made eye contact with meâŚdirect eye contact. âYou can allâŚDIE!â My angel stared at me in her arms. She hadnât expected me to order them to die. I think this was why my hands smelt of, apparently, death. âThey started to laugh, and trembled a little. Then they stood up straight. I stared at them with a blank look. They took the gunâs and pointed them at there necks. âunderstoodâ the leader had said.â I said to her. âAll at once they pulled the trigger and there guns, and there blood splatterd all over the place, some of it hitting me in the face as the bang sounds ecoed in my ears. Ever since that day...I've been lying. Living a lie. The lie of living. Lying that I'm "alive.". My name is a lie...My background is a lie...so many lies. I was board by an unchaning world...yet I couldn't give up my life either. But now I have it. Power. That's why...I'll crush light. I'll crush those who hurt me."
to be continued in chapter 42...
