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bored outta my mind part 8:gonna go phyco soon
Feeling the need to vent horribly.I haven't written anything since late January, and i'm bored as hell. xp Since then a lot has freakin' happened.If you don't want to listen to my rambling, just call lately a rollercoaster that i saw coming.I couldn't stop for getting on said 'rollercoaster' so dont try calling me drama queen or whatever names you can come up with. dramallama (Trust me i've been called them all!)For the ones who want the the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth it's your turn to listen. mrgreen Lets see...I've been super happy with my life heart heart heart ...i geuss...little things here and there so no real complaint except one person.My best friend switched schools, so of course that sucked hairy balls.Valentines day was odd, but amazing at the same time cause i've got the ring to prove it!Biology sucks worse than any class i've ever had the joy of being pulled through.My grade hopped up 25 points, so i feel acheiving!I have been questioning the quality of a lot of my friendships.Not the friends i'm closest to ,though.It's the ones who could never have my trust so why do i even call those people my friends?I don't know, but i don't want to hear it when i say..."i'm sorry..it's not you it's me"...then they'll run off crying or something.Don't think i'm being unreasonable either; I have a very good reason to be mad at this one select person.She hides herself behind a curtain and only comes out when she's stolen the costume of another cast mate.(If you get what i'm saying.)Then when this person steals your costume they try to mimic your life, often leading to touching things that aren't hers the wrong way.Said person could not have and more ignorance than what she has earned, too.She tries so hard to be something shes just not.This would be the person's lame attmpt to "fit in".She could not be any more sad than she is now.I hope she crawls in silent misery.Her misery can't be made public because she is a freak-out and an attention hog and fake as hell AND a poser AAAAAND the biggest whore i have ever met.The things i say about this person are completly true so don't tell me i'm a liar.(my friends now how i feel about liars!)They tell me all this stuff out of trust, so i'm like the front source for everything this person has ever done.I have the ability to ruin her life on the tip of my tongue, and i'm not afraid to use it.If she quits...i'll keep it in just a while longer to wait for the perfect time to ruin her everything...relationships with guys and friends alike!!!!!I'm sure my friends would agree with everything I say too because they hate this girl as much as i do.We act like we like her...but we wouldn't care if she shot herself today.(sometimes i wish she would already)I've almost lashed out on her lots of times,but i don't want to be hated for the result of her actions.Even if i did i should still have the four people who mean the most to me by my side 100%.Well i'm not sure about one due to past relationships with this whore...but i'm sure i could convince them otherwise. mrgreen sure i'm a scheming b***h...but what else could i do?????? 3nodding
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