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I knew I wanted you

Whenever I drift back into the safe of my old memories, I do occasionally think about you
I don't know why I do
Sure everything seemed like we had it all
But honestly, we never had a decent relationship
The months before everything went to hell, everything started to change

I always woke up in the middle of the night, in a cold sweat. Wishing you were gone
Looking back now, I don't even see why we even tried to continue going on. We just started to fall apart slowly
When I was down and thought I would die, you just pushed me farther into the dark deep waters

Every time I needed you, you were always playing games with my head
Trying to be a smart-a**
You now wish you never let me go, you wish that you weren't that person who ignored every thought and feeling I had
I wanted you to be there
I wanted you to show me that you cared, but you just showed me the side of you that I never wanted to see

Now that I am fully happy, I can show you what you are missing
I can now say that I found what I was missing when I was with you
No more cold sweat nights
He's everything that I've ever wished for
You/I wish that you were there when I needed you. Seeing now that I am happy, you regret everything
I thought I knew all of your actions and thoughts, but now, they are completely erased from my mind and you are finally gone
Realizing what I have now, I thought I loved you, but I was only in love with the thought of being with you
Now, I regret the whole relationship...everything just turned into a huge mistake

Why was it so hard before to tell myself that I wasn’t in love with you anymore?
Everything I thought was wrong, was right this whole time
The whole thing between you and I was just a lie to put down in the record books
Someone can’t come back with a magic wand and grant your one wish that you want so much
Just to have me back

Regretting so much for me was hard to do, but now that you are fully out of my life, I’ve changed myself to realize how much that I hate you
Strong words from a small mouth can hurt, but they can change the old you into someone that won’t change after all
Night after night I tell myself that you aren’t worthy to my trust and loyalty
You would just throw it out the window along with my heart
Now that I have someone new, I can show myself that I do have someone/something worth living

I don’t have to fake a smile
I don’t have to try to be happy when I really am not
Every thing just makes so much more sense in the real world and in my thoughts

I’ve finally found what I missed out on so much in our old relationship
Our relationship is now a pile of ashes in a can, waiting to be thrown into the wind to the path of lost memories
I thought I loved you
I thought I knew you, but you just used me to show that you could get a girl





 
 
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