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maybe he is in love with her. and yet maybe he is in love with me. here i am in this dark room telling you how i feel.
i really shouldnt.
u wud think i was insane.
i had a nightmare a week ago.
and i cant seem to fall bk to sleep.
i was trying to die.
i wanted to die.
the people around me didnt care.
the people around me wanted to help me do what was worst for me.
so they did.
tell me, Whats going on in his head
what is he thinking,
what is he feeling.
i feels and sounds like abbsestion
its love.
im dieing. nothing can stop it.
some one please just find me and help me out off this hell of mine..
im trapt inside my mind,
where there is a bloody, painful war.
there is a war going on for your mind.
hate me today,
hate me tomorow.
butt no matter what dont ever forget us.
i just want to cutt open my wrist so it will stoop the pain from the beatings
and there u stood, holding me waiting for me to notice you..
but who r u?

will you be the one that saves me ?
or will you be the one that kills me ?

tell us the truth when we ask u if its ok.
ill keep u safe from those demans.
if you hush the screams of them inside my head.
im mentally and physicaly exxhausted.
no one cares.

not even you.

drag my body into that grave that we dug.
barry me alive.
like you've been all this time.

this time i want to die.
rite now
at this moment.



i want to die.