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When I was a small child and my mom had to go to work, I would cry. I would completely break down in fits of hysterical sobs. My brothers would do all they could to make me smile and it usually worked too. I cried myself to sleep or I laughed through the tears.

But now..now it is not my mother but my good friend. She is gone for maybe a day or so and I have that same old unwelcomed feeling of being abandoned. And with no Jeremy or Jason to make me laugh...I don't know what I might do...this is my first time feeling this way when I'm literally alone.

I guess I have to rely on simple comforts until this passes. Since I have yet to post this I will say it now

Merry Christmas

Though I don't know how Merry it is anymore. I cut myself a lot last night. I cried a lot last night. I rocked myself to sleep last night.

Yes, Merry Christmas indeed. *sigh* I would wish you a happy new year but let's face it, the problems you have aren't going to go away because the last digit changes from 8 to 9.