Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

In my better days.

So, I got drunk on wednesday, again. Like last time, it started with a 6 shot mixer, and ended with sleep. In between it was ******** fun. Once again, not sweaty, naked, penetrating orifices fun.. But, I'll take what I can get.

So, we're well toasted, and talking when Fubenkunai says the most interesting thing to me. "You're internet famous.. You're internet sexy." And I respond with: "They've made me into television, Channon."

Dear christ, she's right. So, it got me thinking. Looking at my journal views, it seems that i'm pretty well read. People apparently have some interest in what I have to say in this journal. Not too shabby. But, it does beg the question.. Why? Why are you reading this? Is it because I'm internet famous, or is it because I'm internet sexy? Or, god forbid, is it becase you actually listen to what I have to say? I mean, don't get me wrong.. you can read this for any reason. Read this because you hate me, and wish to mock me for my typos and lifestyle. Or, do you read this just to see what I do next? "Oh, twistex is crazy, maybe he'll masturbate all over the bible today. While wearing only a tophat and some cleverly placed beer cans." I don't ******** care. If you're reading this, then there's the chance that something I say may actually stick. Something I say may make a difference. It's mostly a curiosity. I know that I'm not changing the world. I can't change te world. All I can do is tak what I see, what i know, and tell you about it. It's up to you to change things. "All i can do is take my brain, my guts, and my reproductive organs, and aim them at the planet like a meat gun. - The keyboard is a gun, and it only has one bullet. But, if you aim it right, you can blow a kneecap off the world." These are words I've taken to heart.

On the note of being internet famous.. What exactly does that entail? Does it seep into real-world famous? I mean, I very highly doubt that anyone talks to their real-life friends about me, or about things I've said or done.

Same with internet sexy.. I mean, does this actually entail people fantasizing about my pale, skinny body, contorted into some preposterous position, dripping sweat, vividly pumping away at you? My eyes half-closed and a smile on my face..

So, to wrap up.. Tell me why you read this, tell me what you're doing here, tell me if I've made a goddamn difference, tell me your fantasies. Before my filthy assistants get wind of this and begin to pry me away from the booze and cigarettes and the keyboard and no hey don't get away from me you filthy ********