Lisanne here is the list of things that you do that bother me, the one that we were supposed to write one another but never did (well I think you did, but I didn't... wopsie)remember that this isn't to be offensive, just something to think about and let you know it hurts my feelings....
1.) Ignoring me completely (on the phone or computer) while playing games, or reading stuff online or watching TV , i mean i do it to, but it seems to be increasingly worse, i mean next time just tell me that it may take a second for you to answer, i wont mind having to wait as long as i know why.
2.) Writing fanfics while basing yourself as one of the characters that has an infatuation with a male that I don't know if it were based on me or not.( now i havnt read your latest one but i do know it involves a character based on you and some boy whom I'm sure will soon grow into a relationship that is more than friends.)
3.)Amanda or Paige or anyone for that matter giving you Shino pics (I'm not sure if you know or not but the whole Shino thing annoys me alot, hence the reason why i was relived to see his face striped from the wall, it just takes me back to the fact I'm your boyfriend and other boys, real or make believe, are potential competition it makes me think that you might take interest back into him, although hes off anime and not real competition) Its just one of those weird things that I've heard of, where a girl would just get a boyfriend to imagine their anime crushes face on the bfs body, that kinda thing really freaks me out and the idea that you might like Shino and do the face replacement thing freaks me out, even though i know you wouldn't do it, still it gets to me. ( I'm insecure, i cant help it )
4.) Getting really annoyed when i do anything the least bit annoying.
5.) Being really depressed and not wanting to feel better even a little. Cause i try really hard to make you feel better then you'll give a chuckle or even be happy for 10 seconds then its back to depressed. Sometimes i feel your worse when im trying to help than if i don't.
6.) Bringing up honor band, that was a horrible time that id rather not relive in any way, shape or form (from what i understand it was bad for you as well), this was a time i was actually afraid that you would dump me, due to the fact you would never say that you loved me while i was there, and the incident where you hung up on me (and meant it), so it would be better if you didn't push me into talking about it.
7.) Picking at my acne, i know its your mothering instincts setting in, that or you just thinking that they're ugly (which they are) but it is hellisticly painful when you do it to the extent that you do it.
Remember I'm not saying you have to change to these things, but do be aware of what they mean to me.
I love you, and i want us to have a infinatley long lasting relationship, and the best way to do that is to know each other .
Please don't be mad...
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