The ******** always talks to my grandma and it's aways about Jason and Jeremy but never about me. Tonight we got into another fight but this time I told mother b***h what was on my mind. . . .I just want them to say one thing to me that they've said to my brothers for years. "I'm proud of you"
I want them to understand this pain I have but so far it's not working...will anyone ever understand? no. no one will ever understand because I won't let them see!
It's hard for me to express these thoughts into words...I always want this shield to be kept up...no one is allowed in and I trust no one 100% . . .at the most I'll trust someone 85%.....it's safer that way. I don't even trust my friends 100%.....sadly....I want to but can't......
I'm not what you see, there's so much more to me....you only see what I want you to because I'm in control....that's why my nickname's puppet.....
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