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A Textbook Suicide By Phil Mihaly (milhouse2)

It seems as though these past few week have been a living hell
I've lost my friends, no loving hands to love or make me well
It seems as though you didn't know my life's a raging storm
I'll end it now, I'm colder now, at least in hell its warm

The world will hear my SOS when I'm lying on the ground
My left hand lying by my side, that's where my will is found
My right hand holding on the blade that's just run through my heart
Straight through my chest, eternal rest, released and slipped into the dark

And if you see this loving blade that I grasp in my hand
You'll see no ropes or guns at all, ill take it like a man
Some will say I'll lose it all, but I'll find it all today
I'll find the purpose of my life, when I fade away

And oh my love please hear me now, and no, its not a dream
Will you come try to save me, or kiss me when i leave?
I'll leave behind this anguish, still living when i die
I guess this really wasn't a textbook suicide.


*I wrote this song when I was in a very sad state, but luckily that time is passed. If you have read this, please realize that this was only an artistic expression of my feelings, and that suicide is not the answer to any problems. I felt likei wanted to die when i wrote this, but then i later realized that all wounds heal, it just takes patience, and a positive attitude.*