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today was a really great day i dot to sleep in a little and i got my room clean although i got in trouble for keeping my grandmother up but i didnt know those walls were so thin. but anyways i got to spend the day with my family at walmart and at target. me and my dad wow we are so much alike its not even funny and you know what im not embarrassed of him because if i was then i would be embarrassed of myself. i miss spending time with my family this is all the family i really have beside my grandmother and my mom (real mom) rolleyes . and tonight me and amee are going to go to the movies i think we are going to watch harry potter i like going to the movies. it gives you something to do to get out of the house and to spend time with family. im kinda sad because i havent talked to kevin all day but i guess i will just talk to gim tom. babe if your reading this dont give up please we have worked to hard to let this slip away and yes we may have fights but no couple is perfect remember. this is just another bump in the road and there will be other ones until we are "together" but even when we are together we will still have fights. we have to get through this together i made a promise i wouldnt give up on us and i would always love you even after death but if you dont believe in us then i have no reason to believe anymore. i dont know why you thought about ending us i never would have even thought of ending us ever in the first place. i guess im hurt that you even thought that i cant stop thinking about it i cry ever time i think about it. but if i do cry people wouldnt understand babe they just wouldnt because they arent me they dont know how i feel. we have to prove ourselfs babe....we have to prove to those who dont believe in us we have to prove them wrong to show them that our love is real. but we have to help each other get through this ok babe i know three years or longer is a long time but just look how fast 5 months has gone by and its almost six babe. hold on babe please....but if you cant i understand its not easy for me either but i dont want to lose you and if suffering for three years to be with you is what i have to do i will do it babe i promised i would do anything for you and if waiting to be with you for three years doesnt prove it then what do i have to do to prove it to you. i helped you get money on gaia i have sold all my cloths on gaia to give you money and helped get money on your account by doing isane puzzle till 2 in the morning. i try cherring you up when your down i say im sorry i ask for forgiveness. if you dont believe how much i love you and how much i would do for you then i dont know what else to do i have done as much as my heart can handle. and i dont expect anything from you but your love i dont want your money i dont want ou gifts i just want commitment i want a relationship that will last hopefully forever. thats all i ask ok babe....thats all. i love you babe so freakin much and i wil never let you go no matter what happens i will always be in your heart my door is always open for you it will never close as long as you want it to stay open.