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The big bolded huge red word isn't enough to describe how deep and agonizing this pain is right now. It's near the area of my shoulder blades, on either side of my spine on my back. To breathe makes it hurt worse. The wind is completely knocked out of me. To press on it would make me scream. To sit straight hurts, to lay down hurts, to curl up in a ball is halfway comfortable, but not comfortable enough to stop crying. Stomach feels sore and aching. My abdominal area where the skin is visibly pulses, meaning you can see it moving if I sit still. If you place your hand gently on top of it, you will feel the skin rise up and hit your palm every few seconds. The organs underneath are burning, and aching. I feel like the inside of my body is completely catching fire, shriveling, and eating me inside out. Tearing my body up in pieces. I'm not even exaggerating. I am describing every feeling I am having right now.

I've been dealing with pains like these every week for almost a year. I have no idea what it is and I have not the money or insurance to see a doctor. Yes I heard of slider fees, no I have no found a clinic yet. It hurts worse lately than ever and the attacks are more often.

It must have been pills I took or food I ate, who knows. Just knock me out please.

I don't want to hurt anymore.

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