hmph...it was the start of christmas my two brothers came back home to spend it with us...i was so exited when i heard my 2nd to the last brother was comming home from manila...and we...ummm...took the car to the air port to fetch him....i was so happy....i sed to my self "yes i'm going to see my hundsome brother again"...but when we got home my mom start pouring attention to him like i don't exist...she gets mad when ever i make mistakes which is not like her...and she constantly say infront of the table that "hahahha...my favorite son...",when i heard that it felt like hell to hear that...i mean she unconsciously sed that with her own daughter beside her (me) gonk her behavior was so unacceptable,i even started to think that i was just her maid....it was so unfair of her...it felt like i hate her!!!she was terrible...then i spaced out while they talk about his favorite son!i remember that i asked her if she loved my sibblings more than she loves me and her reply was the same as in the movies no i love you all the same...but based w/ her movements it was all a lie! scream its not that i'm jelous of him its just that i was shocked with the sudden change of environment...a few days later my second to the first brother noticed my gloomy attitude...then he approched me while i was in my bed listening to my other brothers i pod...i stared at him stare and thinking what does he want now..?,i can't actually hear him so he pulled the earpiece...and asked if i was okay...as usual yes and act like nothing happened but deep inside i was crying ...he was so nice...and i hated him for that...i was holding my tears back 'coz if my mother heard that i was crying she might think that i was just gathering everyone's attention...i got cold with everybody especially to my mom.... evil
ummm...(scratch at the back of my head)so anybody knows what should i do to this matter..?
· Tue Jan 01, 2008 @ 01:08pm · 2 Comments