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I know there's a huge doubt you will ever see this, but it is something I need to get off my chest; which is why I am posting it on here:

I miss you. I miss the conversations we used to have, and how we got along so well. I always find myself walking down memory lane, cherishing the good times we had. We were friends once before, and the fact you refuse to talk to me now hurts me so greatly. Every time I catch myself about to send you a message, I remember how you don't want to hear from me and cancel the message I'm about to send you.

What did I do to make you not want to talk to me anymore? Was it something I said? Was it something I did? I do not know. I have an idea of what it may be, but I'm still not so sure. When we last spoke, you had send me a message that made no sense at the time, and it worried me that something was wrong. You then told me it was something you sent when you had too much to drink, and apologized for it. I asked if that message meant you were over me... At the time I did not see it as a bad question to ask, but I'm beginning to wonder if that question was crossing a line I didn't know was there. I apologized profusely after that, hoping we would still be able to talk again, but that was that.... you left all my messages seen but never answered. I thought if I unfriend you, it would help me forget you since it was obvious you want to forget me....but I think it just made it that much worse. I still find myself wondering how you are, what you're up to, and if you think of me too.

I miss my friend...but I think it's quite obvious that we will never be that again... hopefully someday, whether it's tomorrow or many years down the road, you will find this, and see how I feel...