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Its painful to change. Even painful when you feel like your loseing yourself in the prosess. And you don't know how you are going to become, nor who your going to wake up as when tomorrow comes.
Sometimes I wish I could sleep forever and never change. But yet how would I become content? I know i'm not content with who I am now. But I feel as if i'm changeing into some body who i know nothing about. But then again, the person who I was before never really knew who he was iver. But it just feels like he knew more then I do right now...
Whats happening to me? Who am I becomeing? And who am I now? Will I change for my better. Or will the world finally win and have me.

I want to escape, i want to change but i want to become who i was before...
I want to understand myself.

And I need somebody to help me...
Help me help myself.
But nobody helps a person who they can't exsplan whats wrong...Beacuse they've already changed too much...

'Sigh' Man I hate growing up...

13.5 of april!
REMEMBER!!

Buzzing Memmory.

Over the sea on mental bee,
The sex was honey to bear,

Though I stink of stone, like skin and bone,
I know the flower was really there. :]



And I shell see you again, my buzzing bee hen,
In my buzzing, beating Memmory,

My bosom heart pie, over sea and sky,
Your taste was that of sweet,...funny. ;3 ?

Sex and prayer.

I touch a cloud for god outloud,
I touch the ground for Sin,

I touch myself for middle ground,
And I touch the earth for skin.

Amen.

If I was to bet, with money met,
On Sun, air and fire,
I would be safe, with metal and ape,
That it would all expire.

Dear To My Sky.
As I cross over the watery stones,
My feet covered in salt.
I can slip and fall and curse and shout, Dear Cloud,
Cause’ I know it’s not my fault.

((you shell be safe in here furry sexy man sig x3))



Furry and proud! ^w^

"sigh"...I hate being so diffcult sometimes...

You meet a great roleplayer and begin to really enjoy being this privaliged; you don't get any good Rpers these days on this site.

"sigh"...this always seems to happen. I happly slip into a great little story with somebody and then before it gets properly started something like college or work comes up and i have to do some big asignment or something and it just throws off my brain and i can't think. Then soon the Rp goes unanswered and....things just go wrong.

Man i hate it so...