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I have been in love with my beloved Rays for three years now. I have never been happier. no matter if we fight or if we bicker or we just feel like we could just break down and give up on us.... We haven't and I wanted to wright this journal entry to show just how much I truly love her. I think I am starting to screw up again though... I thing that my insecurities and the tension that builds from time to time over different things is starting to take its tole... I feel like my insecurity is starting to smother her and push he away... but I don't want that to happen.... I want to be with her I want to spend the rest of my life with her.... I need to learn I need to trust if I cant to that then I am forever destined to fail... I don't know what I would do if I didn't have Rays... I would definitely not be here now writing this. She has given me a reason to carry on to strive for a better life to finish my school she has taught me so much about life and why it is that we need to love the little time and little things we have and are blessed with every day. She is my world and I just hope that I don't destroy that beauteful world I dont know what I would do without it. If you read this Rays... know that I am sorry that I love you no matter what my actions are... and that I believe it with all my heart every time I hear you say I love you. I wouldn't be so afraid of loosing you if I didn't believe it. I hope that you can forgive me and continue to love me no matter what... it is your love care and support that has brought me this far... and I hope that that love care and support will be here to help me continue on for a long long long time to come. Now I must go off to dream land... the place where I may find peace or find a world of dreadful things. I hope that even if I find my self amidst the dreadful creatures and places of the darkness that sometimes haunt my dreams I hope that I can awaken to the world that I have found that brings me so much joy and laughter. I hope that when I wake that it will be you Rays that has woken me from my slumber. That it is you who will embrace me and save me as you have done so many times before. An I pray that some day I can be the one to rescue you from the darkness.

Love
TheDarkHiddenByTheLight