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Posted: Fri May 04, 2007 @ 06:46pm
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I almost died
I'm not sure HOW or WHY, but I caught something close to the flu. Or, did I get it? Well, my doctor said that I did, and it I had it pretty bad, she added.
'... Great' was what I thought after I sniffled here and there. Oh God, WHY??? I had a test Thursday-- WHICH I MISSED!!!-- and there's a project due NEXT THURSDAY, and I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT IT'S ABOUT!!!
Don't get me wrong, I read the hand-out saying what we have to do for the project (it's a group project) and we already know what we're doing it about (Oliver Cromwell... right?) and I'm not even sure if they even started yet!!!
Oh God, please have mercy on my soul. I really thought you were going to allow the virus to take my life. However, my immune system showed them wrong!!! A few hundred cups a green tea a day can do wonders, don't you think?
... Okay, I kind of exaggerated on the tea thing.
But anyway, I'm not even sure if my groupmates even FINISHED the project!! They probably kicked me out. That always happens sooner or later. Like, back in seventh grade, when I decided to do a music project with my two 'best friends', and I suddenly caught strep throat and couldn't go to school for two days. They KICKED ME OUT knowing that I was sick and IN PAIN, and you know what? THEY DIDN'T EVEN CARE!!! The selfish pricks!!! GOD!!! I... *sigh* Anger will lead to nothing. I sooo know that. I mean, after seeing those two losers getting angry all the time and noticing the awful things that happens to them next is way pathetic, and I laugh whole-heartedly everytime I remember such an occurance.
Breathing= The best medicine
Laughing= ... Second-best
This also brings me back to eigth grade, when the same thing happened again. In the middle of a project, I sprain my ankle and couldn't go to school the next day. After that, THEY KICK ME OUT!!!!!! I've only been absent for ONE DAY OF THE PROJECT, and they have THE NERVE to do that to me??? What about all the things I did for them? Be for them when they're in trouble, take the blame on things so they wouldn't get in trouble, even doing their homework once in a while. I CHERISHED them because we did everything together and all shared the same interests and were so fun to be with. Then they notice one thing happening to me and they drop me. Like a cup. I mean, when you see a crack in it, what's your immediate reaction? To throw it away, or break it some more. After all, you're going to use that cup any longer. Why save a broken cup? Just get it over with.
I guess these occurances are all my fault. When I don't have an assignment or project due, I'm completely at ease and relaxed, unconsious of everything that's around me. But when I know there's an assignment due soon, I'm suddenly tense and aware of everything happening around me. I get nervous. Really nervous, and think about how the project might look, how it might end up, and all thoughts being negative. But also have confidence in myself; that I will do great on it, and won't have to worry at all. The other side gets the better of me, however, and my entire focus is on the project, and I can't think of anything else. I end up missing something here or there and BAM!! Forget to clean a dish the wrong way, and I end p getting strep throat or the flu or whatever; and WHAM!! I end up tripping and spraining an ankle. Kind of pathetic, huh?
Well, I'm currently looking for site with any help on that. Looking up various breathing exercises, and seeing if it works. I'm also going to keep drinking my green tea (cuz I'm addicted now..) and start eating some good foods! Like dark chocolate... mm... dark chocolate. I freakin LOVE that chocolate man. I started eating it a while ago (more like eigth grade ^^) and ever since I hated the taste of milk chocolate. Favorite M&M's, you ask? Why, it'd of course have to be the dark chocolate ones! In the purple bag!
... Ugh. Purple. Bad memories... but good chocolate =d
I'm insane, don't worry about it.
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