Ok, the situation is this. I was forced to leave someone very important to me and leave to visit cousins in the US, as i myself live in Canada. So now that i'm here, i'm very worries for my love. He is extremely stressed and i can calm him oh so easily. But no, my parents decided to whisk me away far from my home and far from my love. Its lonely here...i sit alone at this computer, typeing out these words, far from the drunken rambleings of my family. I have music to help me keep the remains of my shattered sanity together, Metal mostly...well, Metal and a tad bit of dark techno. The throbbing beats of the techno give me something to concentrate on and the heavy bass of the metal is mind bending. Its strange how my mind can me calmed so much by a simple or very complex mixture of beats thrown together.
Well, back to my current predicament. I worry so much...this weekend was the first time in more than six weeks that i could see my love,as he goes to a private school near the Niagra area. i get to see him for a few days every six weeks, give or take a week or so. Its for the better good, him being away...but sometimes it hurts so much...i wish my parents could understand my emotions on this subject...alas they can not, nor will they ever.
I can't cry anymore...and laughter is something that is hardly heard from my mouth anymore, except those rare instances where my love and i are together.
 LadyKaylaBeaner · Sat Nov 29, 2008 @ 03:12am · 0 Comments |
