well... I figured out... I start to get depressed when I'm alone... not alone as in no people around at all... but usually when I'm not with any of my friends. I hate it! Now I always try to hang out with my friends and be around one of them... but I feel like I'm annoying them by haning around... espicially when it's loonies, like mark and elle... when I walk down the hallway after geometry... I usually look for Mark and Elle so that I can walk with them... they usually don't notice me, and when I see them, I see them together and realize that they probably wouldn't want me to walk with them together, because I would just be annoying...
yeah.. then there's me being all happy and everything. I always have to act happy, or else I get really depressed and I hate it. When I act happy, I have to concentrate to seem care-free, and I forget about everything for a while. now though... when I'm being happy I get the feeling that the people I'm talking to think I'm just plain annoying... crying being care-free and happy-go-lucky is fun though...
 Elrolien · Fri Nov 19, 2004 @ 12:00am · 1 Comments |
