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I'm still sober and still lucky. It feels pretty good...only bad thing is my new school. It blows, the people and the school itself, but the teachers are just awsome. Gonna be goin to college next year, well, middle college. So, that'll be interesting. My friends, back where my dad lives, still haven't forgotten the old me, but there still good to me. *sigh*...still with my girl, it'll be half a year pretty soon.
-rick
well be going to alot more concerts starting october...System of a Down, Mars Volta, Mindless Self Indulgence (again! ^.^), and friends bands, plus my friend who dj's.
Oh yea, I'm trying to get my passport ^_^
 Zero_Hawk69 · Sun Sep 25, 2005 @ 08:32pm · 1 Comments |
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Well, its definatly been awhile since I last wrote. Soo, since I last wrote, alot of bad crap happened (I really don't want to get into detail) and then I met somebody, who I am dating, and life has just been going up since then, and it'll be 2 months next week.
school is allmost out and its sad because I don't want to leave all my friends there...
my family is coming back together, only problem is my appearence isn't...what they wanted me to be.
so, life's up, alchol drugs and cigarettes down (forever), and I'm happy.
-rick
OH I went to the Mindless Self Indulgence concert...god, that was the best.
Zero_Hawk69 · Sat Jun 04, 2005 @ 08:39am · 1 Comments |
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Half the man I used to be |
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I think there's something wrong with me. Past couple months I've been in 3 relationships. Two of them lasted for like a couple minutes...the new one was just recent and I got WAY to wasted and started talking to her. Like things I would NEVER say I said. Now she can't even look me straight in the eyes anymore.....I havn't slept nor eaten anything for some time now. I just don't feel like doing either. I've also got these holes on my both my hands...looks like somebody took some nails and left marks.
I'm so ******** depressed....and I've been that way for a couple months...also everytime I try and make the best of something (or drink) I usually end up trying to kill myself. I wish I could go back in time...its just I use to be a big kid but now I'm this skinny kid. Its because of all the s**t I've done in my past....which I'd like to forget...I think I'm going to be sober, like totally sober. No more of this alchol or herb s**t....nah, its just not for me. You know, I use to believe in god untill I became catholic.
-rick (creep)
Zero_Hawk69 · Sun Jan 23, 2005 @ 01:39am · 1 Comments |
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Wow...I can't figure out people, I guess....I met somebody at a party, it was a pretty hectik party untill about midnight. Everybody left, oh and this wasn't a small party by any means. Anywho, it was me, her, and a couple other singles in the room. We were both on each other.....it was one of those moments where you could have died happy. I wonder how long this one will last? I wonder how long I'll last? I wonder if anybody is reading this and understanding what I'm writing?
So many questions, only eternity to answer...
-rick
Zero_Hawk69 · Wed Jan 12, 2005 @ 06:41am · 0 Comments |
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It's.....7:15 am...I just looked over my shoulder but no one was there....I've decided to stay up for three days. Counting yesterday....I will end on the 2nd.....this'll be diffrent. I've been wondering how diffrent I would act when insonmia FULLY took me over, I know how it is for like a day, but not three....oh, I just found out that December has 31 days, heh, and my birthday was on the 9th....I guess I should probably stop smoking....makes me forget useful information....oh, by the way my New Years Resolution is to get some sleep, it doesn't sound much but I never get any sleep, so I'm SURE to have a good nights sleep on the 2nd ^_^
Very odd, I find myself going in and out of a dream, its kind of disturbing...can't wait for the 2nd night....
-rick
Zero_Hawk69 · Fri Dec 31, 2004 @ 03:19pm · 0 Comments |
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And then there was light....which was quickly taken over by the darkness.
This is new, a new idea. I don't think I've ever done a "journal" before but I love to express my myself, so here I am...writing my first post. So what to write about....what to write about...maybe about myself?
I'm Rick. I live in Oregon and I travel all across the states. My Age is of no concern. Today is Thursday, December 30th. Just one more day till NEW YEARS! I'm going to be heading over to Florence, Oregon to where my relatives are. I will probably be getting....well I will be having fun when the ball is dropped.
I'm a night owl, which means I love the night, also it means if I go to bed, I wont be sleeping for that long. To tell you the truth I havn't been getting any sleep...I'm not sure why, I just lay on my couch just thinking...and it drives me crazy....just thinking. *sigh*....oh well. That's all for now, three words for all of you, Peace, Love and Understanding.
Later all!
*EDITED*
Looks like the trip has been cancelled....now I'm stuck here in this crappy apartment.
Zero_Hawk69 · Thu Dec 30, 2004 @ 09:17pm · 1 Comments |
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