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(i'm going to try and keep this as clean as possible)--i'm not in a happy mood right now...


when it comes to family and money, they can be really shadey. it's funny how you can make involuntary agreements. never openning your mouth, but somehow agree to something. then your forced to do and believe all kinds of crap and then suffer the consequinces for not taking a preffered action. how is it this happens...? then on top of that you got ur own family talkin crap about you. so at this point ur not talking to them......so now, you've made a decision that you and your mind never agreed to, you're suffering, and you got people talking crap about you because they don't know what you're doing. how can you trust anyone anymore.....i've lost complete trust. and then the parents dont make it any better......one you can't seem to have a civilized relationship with when you get stuck together for too long, and one that is so high up on the wrong horse that he/she can't come down, put the past behind and take you in (it wasn't all that serious anyway). i know there are people out there having it worse than i am, but geez....gimme a break. if people were more conciderate of others, we wouldn't be living in this hell hole of a society. there are countries out there who have wars amongst themselves and kill eachother for what seems like no apparent reason....but are we so different. we shun our own. at least these people in other countries have tighter bonds with their culture. here in america we look at one another as if we're aliens. we despise those who are of lesser value than we are ourselves. if you think about it.....we may as well be as savage as the countries we look down apon. we're all alike.....killing, descriminating, hoarding, raping, pillaging, self centered, self loathing.....etc
just be happy in the life you're living..be positive and peaceful. maybe then, those of us who are suffering beacuse of the self righteous may have a break. we need to be equal as one. none better than others. stop the suffering and the hurt. but that's almost impossible....those who hate and don't look outside the box will always keep us suffering.