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I'm DeathByCelery. I don't know...my journal's probably going to be kind of random. Please feel free to comment. I'll write about topics such as... *Things that piss me off *Things that make me happy *Noteable happenings *My dreams-I LOVE to drea
I had a pretty awesome dream last night. It actually could have been a lot better in a couple of respects, but it was good nonetheless. This is what happened…

So I was in my local post office with Aaron (yes, I know hanging out in a post office is weird. Don’t worry, I haven’t actually done this). We were talking to a group of other people, which eventually dissipated, and Aaron left too, so I was there alone. Well, in walks Anthony Green (of Circa Survive). We were there talking, but then we started making out. Oh, it was so glorious! It was just so amazing the way he was standing there holding me in my dream as we kissed. To be making out with Anthony Green! This was no ordinary sex dream though, unfortunately I had a conscience in this dream. I kept thinking about cheating on poor Aaron, but then the other part of my mind was thinking “This is ******** Anthony Green! You’ll never get another chance like this! Just go with it!” We stopped making out for two seconds, so I stepped outside for a moment, and saw Aaron’s car was still there. I was like “wtf? I didn’t see him inside the building.” I went back in and looked, and there he was working behind the counter. I said to him “What the hell? You work here? You got a job here?” He said yeah, that he had just got the job today. I then proceeded to go off on him for not telling me something like this, and yelled at him about how his communication ******** sucks. I stormed off back to Anthony Green, and started bitching to him. I brought up how he was there making out with me when he has a wife and kid at home. I don’t really remember the dialogue we had when I said that, but even though I now knew he was a man whore, I didn’t say anything else so as to not ruin my chance with him. I knew it was wrong for both of us, but once again I just kept thinking I would never get this chance again. He invited me back to the house he was staying at to hang out. I gladly went, still steaming over Aaron. We got into his bright orange car (it was a weird looking car, I’m not sure if it really exists) and his driver started towards his house. We ended up passing my house though, so I asked to stop so I could tell my mom where I was going and show her Anthony. When I stepped through the door my mom descended upon me, screaming at me and asking where the hell I had been. I showed her Anthony, and she was like “Oh my. So this is what’s been keeping you. That’s just fine then.” I told her we were going to his house and asked her what time I had to be home. She said that it didn’t matter, I could stay all night if I wanted to. We then got back in his car and started driving again. I was sitting there looking out the window while an internal crisis played out inside my dream self. I knew that going to his house meant that there was the possibility of sex, and I wanted to so bad, but that would really be cheating on Aaron. Did I take this once in a lifetime opportunity, or stay true to Aaron? Since I was pissed at him I felt more willing to have sex with Anthony, but at the same time I knew being mad really wasn’t a valid excuse to cheat. If Anthony wanted sex, even if I had decided to stay true to Aaron, would I really be able to say no? Was my mom giving me permission to stay out all night her way of saying I should take this opportunity? I woke up then before we ever made it to his house.

So yeah, that’s what happened. I really wish it just could have been a normal sex dream where I didn’t have to contemplate cheating on my boyfriend. I wish he simply just didn’t exist in that dream world. So the dream was still quite enjoyable, but it would have been better if I didn’t have a conscience, and if there would have been actual sex. It’s really got me thinking about what I would do in the situation. Not that it would ever happen, but what if? Me being mad at Aaron for his sucky communication was definitely my real frustrations I’ve been having with him lately manifesting itself. Does the fact that I dreamed of the possibility of sex with another man mean I not completely satisfied with him? I don’t know, I guess if I dreamed of sex with some other random guy it would mean that, but honestly, he can’t compete with Anthony Green, so maybe the dream didn’t mean that. I don’t know, but even though the dream wasn’t as good as it could have been, I wouldn’t mind having it again.





 
 
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