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I sat on my lazy a** all day not doing homework. You would think about how stuiped I am.. I mean, honestly, half the day off, I could have done something productive. Nope, gaia, just gaia. I am such an idiot. Well back to school tommorow. And gaia.. will be... outside of homework and school, so sad.
 .S.T.D. · Tue Oct 10, 2006 @ 11:10pm · 1 Comments |
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ROAR INDIGO GIRLS -GLOMPS- |
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They are so amazing, alright, background yea? Alright so I went to best buy with my dad to get evil dead 1 and 2. Well I was there and was gunna look for an addition to my indigo girls collection, I have been so busy with school I forgot their album was realased just a few days ago... Well so I was looking at hte Indigo Girls collection they had and I saw.. Despite out diffrences.. Little Perrenials (sp?) is there, it was amazing, I blasted it in the car with my dad, who was really annoyed. Well we got home, having listened to a good portion of it, when.... ohh my.. I almost forgot that I found the Harvest moon I have been looking for for like... months..... because I was so excited for the new Indigo Girls CD <3 <3 <3 Well we got home and watched Evil Dead 1&2, we are gunna watch those and Van Helsing, and Army of Darkness of hallowing and scare the little kids while helen.. is in that place.... Whatever cool I feel so cool <3 anyway <3
.S.T.D. · Tue Oct 10, 2006 @ 06:01pm · 0 Comments |
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"She needs a cane, this old lady just needs a cane." |
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Really I feel really really old. Today guess what I did, I woke up, and cleaned. My house honestly looks like an old west cabin. Adding to feeling I live in the old west because someone *stares* told me it looks like I live in an old west town. Downtown does look like an old west movie, add a couple shot-outs and cowboys, turn the coffee house into a bar and it would be. It makes sence though, I live in a really old town. But I woke up this morning and felt like I was actually living in those times, it was sooo cold. Right now it is 44 degrees F, and about 6 degrees C, inside it is about the same. I mean I like it, but then I went and set a fire in the woodstove, and had a urge to clean. After I was done cleaning, I made cookies. I feel like an old west lady "do you want a cookie deary?" *shudder* The worst part is... they taste really good. I mean it's just not something you would expect me... Kris, to be doing, I mean I am not the cooking type... I don't do girly stuff... ever... I eat food not cook it. What's wrong with me... Ohh well... I guess I should take a cooking class next semester, not have my cooking look like someone barfed up tasty stuff... Well have to attend to the cookies.. bai!
Ghaa not helping world... Seriously, they HAD to put the indigo girls new album RIGHT were I was looking... Making me feel... happy, but a little weird.. I don't know anyone else except haley who like the indigo girls, and is my age... and not nerdy. I mean, I don't mind being a dork. But so publicly, to be buying dork-attire in a store, I mean, if it is covered by an Ipod... but.. a CD... *nerr.. love indigo girls... totally awsome..* Anyway, so I also got.. Evil dead 1&2 they were really good movies.. <3 So not I feel old... God Damn Kids, get off my lawn. rofl
.S.T.D. · Mon Oct 09, 2006 @ 11:20pm · 0 Comments |
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it is insane. I don't know. I was talking to Lidia again, it made me happy, we talked for hours and exchanged pictures....I found a picture of my mom at a rally and gave it to her... a big red arrow pointing to my mom among the like 100 people there. It was fun. We spent hours talking and exchanging pictures. Finding things out about each other. I almost told her I was gunna write a book... I still feel really weird with the idea though, I am a long ways in and can't stop now, but still. The good portion of a book, that grows larger every day.. I don't know if it will go anywere. I feel like an idiot. Anyway after that I went to my dads and dyed my hair purple, it was gunna be green but then I found I couldn't do both green and purple so I just did purple. Now I am watching Perscilla, Queen of the Desert with my dad. I wonder sometimes what his past was. He is really quiet and doesn't talk about his college years and some high school years. He has watched more gay cult films than I have. I wonder sometimes if he was gay, he seems it... Sometimes....
.S.T.D. · Mon Oct 09, 2006 @ 02:49am · 1 Comments |
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Homecoming was fab. I hung out with all my friends and made some new ones, I danced the evening away, I felt really naked though and still am wearing the dress, it was so form fitting everyone could see my curves, which made me feel self concious. but i had fun. my only sadness is that lauren and I have no stand-partner-friendship. Ohh well it doesn't matter their are chair tests soon, and we may switch spots, maybe I get sat next to Daniel and there IS stand partner friendship! Well I am totally tired, so bye for now.
I am bored silly, so more about the night, I went to my school, my mom drove me, I will have pictures of my dress soon. I'ma gunna post a picture of it later. The school had done this total city theme it was wonderful. There was like hip-hop and rap, there were like circles, and they had a big screen with music videos on it! Then they would have pictures of the entire court yard. I saw Patrick, it was fun. There were so many people there, I swear the courtyard was TOTALLY packed. I wanted to talk to this girl so bad, but I was to shy, SUCH B.S. I am never shy. Ever. She is killer cute. When chamber and us are together in the group of 75 she sits in front of me.
.S.T.D. · Sun Oct 08, 2006 @ 01:15pm · 0 Comments |
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alright, so last night would have been perfect if it were not for center of drama Becca, who I was dating. It had been a killer day, and was going perfectly, Devon and I are buddies now, Angie I realise has some short comings, but so do I so who cares. I was marching and a really cute girl though she knew me. That was great the four corners march was the best I have ever been to, aside from last years four corners march. It usually is pretty cool. I met Churchill, and am now in a film with me, saying "Nice to meet you Mr. Churchill." (I don't like him very much) anyway. so it was going great, I was lifting Devon up on my shoulders so he could see the dancers, when my phone rang, I payed no attention to it, as I had a 70 pound child on my shoulders. So when I checked the message, Becca had called, she and a boy were having sex, holding the phone so I could hear. Becca and I were DATING, it was B.S. and distroyed the day. So I called her up we argued, she said it was just a joke, bullshit in my opinion. I don't really care, something like 12 messages were on my phone. I broke up with her, and am now going to homecoming by myself. I look great, so yea!
.S.T.D. · Sat Oct 07, 2006 @ 07:59pm · 1 Comments |
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Well, I guess I should give some background, homecoming is friday, and I really want to go. So I needed a date, I asked 3 diffrent people, all of which were just friends, and guys, eww. So anyway, I was joking around with my friend Becca, who just got back from a trip to that place... sweatdrop anyway so I asked her, she said yes! Then, we seem to be going out. I don't know how it happened. I guess... Asking her to the dance was.. not just a friend thing. Whatever, so we were talking with some of our friends while video taping while, Francis and her Girlfriend, Katie desided to have a big lesbian kiss infront of everyone. I was gunna give Becca a small kiss for the camera, when Becca went for it and started making out with me. rofl So.... When I get home I get a text saying she can't come to homecoming, her mom found out she was bi, and freaked. Later I found out, she actually kicked her out of the car a good twent miles from her house, ten of which can be taken by bus. So at 10:00 at night my mom and I go out to look for her. She is already gone on the bus. So that was my dramatic day.
I started using this proactive stuff, my acne is clearing up perfectly, I have five pimples out of the twenty or so I had before, it is great! and my hair is being nice too. Overall, good day. But still waiting for my phone to ring with the right call, or a phone number I can call to appear in my mailbox.... Or just a PM!! I don't know, any contact is good.
Jens and I are doing drag to the song Promiscuous Girl I am da boy, it'll be fun! I'll video tape it and put in on youtube. mrgreen
.S.T.D. · Thu Oct 05, 2006 @ 06:22am · 0 Comments |
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yup. Today sucked a**, but I am going to smile on the world tommorow, just like I do everyday and, get my bus pass, and have perfect change for the bus. I am going to keep my cool around Kara and wink at her, maybe start a conversation.
I started my five personalities accounts today, as you know, I am very diffrent on this account from Lipstick Lesbian, so I desided that my five personalities all need to be represented. To be plain, on Lipstick Lesbian, I am a control freak lesbian, prude, who often acts as though she needs to be perfect (b***h) I mean *hack* alright so, kinda crazy, but seriously hear me out. I have moods I go into, and one is... Well Lipstick, the other is me, you know, cool relaxed, perfect, but whorish me. Then there is Back to the 22nd century, who is a little crazy, she acts like she is high at all times, she is sweet, but, a soul sister to anyone she meets, personally, she is a little crazy. Then there is .nothing personal. Who is a b***h, and proud of it, she likes organising all of us and making us into a uniform catigory, everyone hates her. and last, but not least Indie Pop, who is my main personality, what I act like in life.
So that's that. cool Well, I'ma going to bed, hopin' for my phone to ring sometime... redface yea, well, I'ma wake up and forget my mom, just get ready to go! See ya!
.S.T.D. · Wed Oct 04, 2006 @ 04:46am · 0 Comments |
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Alright well, hurtling into another world. Again, I am going into that whole wanting to kill yourself s**t. Mostly caused by her (my mothers) self-absorbed world. Honestly, I had a really crazy day and just needed some alone time, right. Well my mom comes in and is talking to me sooooo much. All about her and how her job sucks, and how she has an interview, so one and so forth, for at least half an hour. Annoyed but happy because I was able to be online rolleyes So anyway, I say, "don't know you want to know about my day?" she goes on talking about herself for another five minutes. I mean, bitchy. Then she is like, sure I'll hear about your day, maybe it will help me. Alright, no, helping yourself all the time is not helping yourself. Honestly, I see what Ben (my brother) is saying, she is a self absorbed pig. So we eat dinner and I am totally stressed because yet again my teacher was way way too much like my ex-girlfriend. Well I am really stressed because of everything else. I go and ask to take a shower, well, I can't help but just let it all clean all things shitty of my day off, and soak for a while. My mom throws a tantrum. She stomps up the stairs and screams at me. I know I was supposed to help her but.. I don't know. So I am preparing to get out and she screams at me some more. I am going threw caffiene withdrawl at this point, my brain is so slow, I feel myself sliding into the water again, this time my mouth and nose under, I blow all the water out, and stay there, wondering what it is like after death. Realising that this did no good. That I should be thankful for how easy I have it, I pull my head out and get ready to go clean the dishes when I hear my mom throwing things and generally being violent in her room and she screams at me "FAN TAN" which if you don't know is a cuss word, in Norsk. I don't want to have to deal with her, so I go down, put my head phones on and get working. She comes down and starts slamming things about and screaming at me. I am listening to music on the verge of tears, what I almost did ten minutes ago sinking in, remeber the time I counted the pills on my pillow, remebering how it felt to know that I might be free. I can't though. I just don't understand, everything is happy, but my mother, who is driving me over the edge. If I hear her say how terrible her life is because of this, this and that other thing, saying the same s**t over and over again I shall strangle her. I don't know. Anyway on with the story, so she rips the headphones out of my ears. I begin sobbing and put them back in. She rips them out again and I am just in tears. She says how she should be the one crying because she does all the work. So I finish up the dishes, her yelling at me, and I just couldn't handle it. Next thing I know she says she needs to use my computer, like I wasn't even sobbing (notice at no time she asked why I was sobbing) she needs to do work related things. So I help her out and she is no help what-so-ever always insulting me and telling me, something after I spend ten minutes trying to find it with her telling me it doesn't exist. Then telling me my computer sucks. Once I try to help her, and not break my computer, she calls me a control freak. Soon comes the stream of insults and I go up to her room to try to figure it out, and tell her I almost killed myself. She acts as though killing yourself means nothing. Like my life doesn't even matter. I honestly don't know what to do. She goes on like nothing happened, like she didn't hear me blowing all the air out and standing still, no breathing. Then the insults come again. We go to my fathers so I can print her s**t out. Yet again more insults. Until I get home, were she expects a hug when I go to bed. Honestly, I don't know how much more of my mother I can stand. And posting this adds even more stress because now someone might get worried and it would be all my fault, making me a terrible person.
.S.T.D. · Tue Oct 03, 2006 @ 04:39am · 1 Comments |
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