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i realize that not many of you people know me. I understand that most of you will pay no attention to my worrds, but I have sat back and watched from the sidelines for far too long now. I have kept a silent tongue for Kassie's sake because she is the only person amoungst you that I know, respect and trust. There are a very select few amoung you that have listened to both sides of the story and have come to your own conclusions through logic-- not selfishness or hyper emotion. I have kept silent because I was being respectful of Kassie's wish to not cause any drama because I deeply care about her feelings and well being- because we are close friends. But after what you people pulled last night, attacking me and her, I feel it necessary to speak up and let you know exactly what is going on so that there is no mis-communication or mis-understanding. The reason I refused to talk last night was because Kassie was asking me to give you all lip service to appease you. I believe that doing that will only perpetuate the problem, so I refused. The following is the truth about my relationship with Kassandra:
Hi, my name is Patrick. I have known kassie from gaia for about close to two years. We have talked on and off for quite some time now. Lately, we have gotten very close as many friends do. We share intimate parts of our lives with each other and build a foundation of love and trust. I know you guys know what Im talking about because it is the same for many of you as well. However, Kassie asked me to be her boyfriend on Christmas, 2009. I agreed thinking that since we have become such good friends that maybe taking the relationship to a more romantic level would be nice to try and see what happens. Well I can tell you that ever since Christmas, we have grown closer by leaps and bounds. We both trust each other with our lives, we have come to a point of being totally in love with each other-- so much that just being in contact with one another makes our day better and more tolerable. We smile, laugh and view life not as a shitty crap hole of stress and redundancy; but we look at our lives as something that we wanna live and share together. I understand that a lot of you are going through a lot of serious stuff- I dont wanna downplay that at all. But we all have a cross to bear- s**t happens to the best and the worst of us. These are simply trials in our lives that we must overcome one way or another. I do not use the abuse and suffering from my past as leverage to get attention and/or sympathy from anyone. It is not a free pass for me to feel that I am obligated to something more out of life- it is a reminder to me that life sux and is difficult at times, and that you must be strong to survive it. This can be done with the help of your good friends and family ~ that is one of the reasons that we have them. Kassie has been having a very rough couple of months now as you all know. But she is continuing to be as self-sacrificing as she can be to be there for you, her friends. For you, the people who call her a cheater, a liar and a whore. She will bend over backwards and give you the shirt off her back without question because she is one of the true people that is completely honest and genuinely cares about you. And you people that call yourselves her friend and family would so quickly abandon her because she is dating someone that you dont know or approve of. How can you call yourself someones friend if you demand them to act in a certain way, to talk to people that only you approve of? How can you call yourselves friends when you cause so much pointless drama to the point of driving her off so that she can maintain at least some of her sanity? Why can you not be happy for her to be dating someone that makes her happy? Why can you not be happy for her, but instead cause a commotion because she is not dating someone that you want her to date? Do you even realize how selfish that is? Would a true friend ever dictate to you who you can and cant talk to? Who you can and canoot date? You have a right to your oppinions, but saying hateful and hurtful things because you're not in agreement with someone else is wrong. Im sure a lot of you think yourselves a suitable match for Kassie- and maybe you are. But for the moment, she is with me and we are content with that- if you even think of yourselves as a friend or family member to this wonderful amazing preson, you would do well to respect her feelings about this. Dont go trying to coerce her into doing or saying things because of your friendship. Kassie feels that she must tell half-truths so that she can make me happy, but also make you, her friends, happy as well. She is stuck because she cares for all of us. That is the way she is. I'm simply telling you my side of all of this. So be respectful of Kassie, your friend, or your are not her friend at all. Deal with this information and this situation in any way you want, but remember that your reactions weigh heavily on the relationships you have. Kassie was very hurt from all of you last night. Friends do not purposefully hurt other friends. Im sorry if you got the wrong idea about Kassie and her romantic intentions. It was not her intent on causing any confusion for any of you. She wanted me to hide from you all so that no drama would be caused, but I cannot live that way. If you cannot deal with this, then gtfo.
The reason for my visit to Kassie's house was because I wanted to see her, plain and simple. It wasn't because I was gonna tutor her (although I've been helping her every day with her math), it wasn't so that I could get laid (because that commodity you can get almost anywhere), and it wasn't because I wanted to cause a rift between her and you all. I simply wanted to spend some quality time with her. To be in her physical presence for the first time. Well that time is coming to a close, but we have already made plans to visit again in a few weeks.
Thats the long and short of my story- what I say is the truth because any kind of lie will cause complications down the line, and s**t like that is a waste of all our time. Think what you like of me, I truly dont care any more... I thought that perhaps we could have been friends, but your close-minded, selfish, childish actions will forever prevent that from becoming a reality.
If you wanna b***h and moan, feel free to send me your verbal venom- If you have a problem with me then maybe we can talk it over, but leave my girlfriend out of it. If you have issues with me, then keep them with me, and dont go talking to her and stressing her out any more than she already is. Thx.
I wish you all the best in life.
Patrick

ps-Q, please disregard the entirety of this letter ~ I believe that you are one of the only friends of Kassie who speaks out of a concern for her first, and not out of selfishness. Qualities like that are hard to find, and I dont want you thinking that I'm attacking you in any way. Keep playing it neutral and making your own decsions.