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The all encompassing Muffin Metaphor |
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It's strange how you can find yourself fitting so well into a saying that may not make much sense of first glance. On the state of my perpetual self and how I find it difficult to really trust and give in to want, a friend said something interesting to me.
"You are a delicious muffin."
Alright. Strange enough yes, but the more I thought about it the more right it was. A simple delicious muffin, something you crave. You want, you lust and desire for it- you think about it, dream of it, until the day you finally have it. It's a rush of euphoria, splendid animation and exhilaration! You enjoy it for the moment you have it. Then, you get full. Or tired of it... and then what? You throw it away. You give it to someone else to finish. You let it rot. Or, you finish it off and move on. The thing with a muffin, it's not memorable afterwards. It made you happy for a moment, then you find something else.
I think that's the person I am. I am strangely alright with this though, it's better than giving someone a stomach ache or not being wanted at all, right? I feel as though I let having feelings on occasion get in the way of what I'm better at. Observing, studying, understanding, and helping. I'm better at non-permanence, and making others happy till they can find the happiness for themselves.
I guess that's my introspective rant for today. Best part is, no one will really read it here. It's good to write it out, but know no one will make a big deal about it.
On a lighter side. I also work for muffin mix:
Sure it lasts longer, but still expires eventually and you need so many other ingredients to make it work.
 Zaerin Grey · Sun Jan 22, 2012 @ 08:48pm · 0 Comments |
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Look at Gaia being clever, and making me update my journal! Oh sneaky sneaky!
Zaerin Grey · Mon Apr 18, 2011 @ 07:39pm · 0 Comments |
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I don't update this thing very often, it's probably for the best. I have too much life happening on the outside that I rarely stop to tell others whats going on!
Then I think about it, and not much has changed.
This isn't a bad thing, by the by. It means life goes on- nothing is new. No dramatic he said she said, no severe pain, and most of all.... no depression.
I would like to think I'm growing out of that phase of my life, finding happiness in simpler places rather than always looking on the large scale. So rejoice with me strangers, it's been a good life leading into a better one.
Zaerin Grey · Tue Apr 06, 2010 @ 07:28pm · 0 Comments |
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~I bet you are flying inside~ |
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Sometimes I can still feel the feathers. All those twists of hollow tubing and broken down as each white memory fell ashamed from what could have been a sturdy back- one, of course, that would no longer support the constant pressure nor consciousness of my own self pity. It was so damn painful to shed those pounds of emotion, but it was worth it right? What might have felt so beautiful and looked so right in the eyes of a blinded angel... how was I to know salvation could be found in falling? I feel naked and whole again. No decorated mistrust, no salvation in the protective cusp of my own folded image. I can almost stand without relying on the counterbalance of weight constantly looming behind me- but I do miss it sometimes. Those wings- feathers and memories lost to the winds of good fortune.
I guess I'll just have to learn how to fly on the inside now.
Zaerin Grey · Wed Jul 01, 2009 @ 03:23pm · 0 Comments |
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So, I was bored and toying around on Gaia and decided to try something.
I decided to see how many items I could put on my character.
I tried several different ways, but I think the final outcome is the highest number of items that can be equipped at the same time out of all the items that I have. In the end, I think it looked pretty neat!! I suppose I will leave my avi looking like this for a while, just to show it off, but I have a feeling my head will start to be weighed down since about 15 of those 38 item are in fact, on my head somewhere.
Well, that is all for now. My daisy quest still rolls on. (I'm about to come into a large sum of them I have a feeling. ) I'm about to do another giveaway (kinda, gifts in exchange for buying tickets, but almost all of the items are going to be worth more than the cost of the ticket). And I love my friends (but that goes without saying.)
alright, sleep tight kids, because it's almost time for me to start rocking your world.
Zaerin Grey · Mon Jan 29, 2007 @ 02:40am · 1 Comments |
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Well, I finally have a quest!! It is a noble cause, a valiant cause, a cause among causes!!
It's to collect one million white daisies.
There is actually a reason why I am doing this. Daisies are my favorite flower, I love how they look and how they make me feel. They also remind me of a lot of my favorite songs, so that is an added bonus as well. I just can't shake how happy they make me, and so....
Why shouldn't they make someone else happy too?
I'm questing for a million daisies so that I may give them away to a Gaian who I truly believe deserves them. Someone not petty, cheerful, insightful, and in need of a good sign that they are appreciated. They can do whatever they want with the daisies afterwards (sell them, give them away as gifts to people, what have you) and I shall begin a second quest for more daisies!!!
Any help/donations/support is appreciated. So my friends, help make a far out goal obtainable!! Help me with my million white daisies quest!!
Zaerin Grey · Mon Aug 14, 2006 @ 10:38pm · 2 Comments |
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You! Yes you hiding in the bushes!! Entertain me!!!
Rejoice and be happy, rejoice or die!!!! =^.^=
Zaerin Grey · Fri May 26, 2006 @ 08:19am · 0 Comments |
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typing with my finger styllis |
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My fish says hello.
Not sure if I do yet or not....
but I think I spelled styllis wrong....
Zaerin Grey · Fri Mar 03, 2006 @ 06:18am · 0 Comments |
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Wow, months since I last posted. I'm a boring person I guess.
Well, not much to say. Just thought I would see if this still worked.
Now if gaia would just stop glitching, all would be right in the world...
Zaerin Grey · Thu Aug 18, 2005 @ 05:32am · 1 Comments |
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