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Ok... I have had this crazy ******** ex who stalks me, threatens to commit suicide over me and to be honest... sometimes he gets physically violent with me. We were together for 3 years and I just couldn't take his s**t anymore, filed for restraining order and left him. My request for the restraining order didn't go through..

For a little while I felt at ease though because he hasn't been around, but then he ended up calling my phone blocked (Lord knows how he got the number) and like an IDIOT I gave him a chance to speak.. Because the truth is that I actually DO love him.. I just hate what it takes to be with him and feel that all the bullshit isn't worth it. Long story short..

I ended up back with him... and really regret it. I hate this. I feel so alone and trapped...

WTF Did I get myself into? crying