How I wish she would realize how I feel........but....what I feel is forbidden......I don't want to lose her.......but I want her to not be lonely anymore. How odd it is to feel anything for someone I've never actually met......never touched.....this must be remedied at some point. I've tried to tell myself it can't work out, that there is no chance for it to ever be but I can't. Every time I do I simply can't not like her she is on my mind most of the day overtaking almost everything else in frequency but......I can't say I love her..........I just....I can't I've never even met her.......
Noone else will understand they only sit there and judge even my best friends judge when I tell them..... I have noone not even the girl I care for I can tell......I have no confident. How do you even tell someone who you have never met but talk to every day that you care.....its more complicated then that its not that I fear rejection its that I fear losing her........which given her attitude on hints I send is a definite possibility. I ...should be happy to be so close but how can one be happy when she is so sad. She knows not what she does to me.......
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