Who I am "really"

If you really knew me you would know how bad it feels to live. Every day It feels like I have to forcre a smile to my friends and family. I can`t sleep knowing that I have to go through day trying to avode dirty glares. I don`t know who I can turn too they have all turned me away. I can`t even sleep because they are all nightmares.
please help.
Nerotically yours
Kim Smith (redlittle14)