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darkelfishqueen
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its really hard to sit.. and have someone who used to be your bestfriend sit and tell you, that you are not important anymoree thats hard to swallow down. I miss that old friendship I used to have. In honesty, I miss a lot of my old friendshis that I used to have. Things are so much diffrent now. I miss my old relationships and I miss who I used to be, althou I do feel ike I'm soon going to be back to who I am. I feel vry put together and getting happier all the time. I just.. I never had to be happy without chris and now that I never spend anything with him happyness doesn't come easy. I'm working outall the time which is giving me a great endorphines. I think if I could get ungrounded for Halloween than id behavel to enjoy that and it would be conferting. Or very enjoying and shell shocking for me. I still feel alone but I'm doing well coming back to my friends and inner circle. I miss so many things but that's part of life I belive.. to change and just keep going forward... but.. I just.. I'm so tired of it all.. life is exhuastiingg andd I'm lazy




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OH my Jesus Im so TIRED of crying all the time I feel like its draining my soul out. But Im pleasantly surprised that I turn out to be the type of person who feels better after blogging or en-trying journalism. Ive gone threw three composition books already in the past four months with doodles, thoughts, poems, feelings and so on. I think IO would die thou if anyone would to see what I write in them. There very personal. My History teacher had found one of them the other day and she said she thought it was mine, but I believe she didn't open it. I think I was about to faint I ran soo fast to the end of the class room to gave it back in my grasp. I miss Gaia, So I think the writing will be a good distraction from.. Yeah.. So here I am!!
Worried about my test been studying like CRAZY and Im excited for Halloween even thou I think im going to be grounded threw it I need fifteen bucks to get un-grounded ughh kill me now!!



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darkelfishqueen
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Go to sleep and close your eyes, and dream of broken butterflies. Whov torn their wings against a thorne, you know the pain they have endured. Silverr metal that shines so bright, scarlet blood that feels so right. Dream of blood trickiling down and wake up before you drown. The moonlight shining off your tears as you bleed out your worst fears.so tonight when you start to cry whisper the cutters lullabye
hush a bye baby your almost dead, you dont have a pulse your pillow is red. Your family hates you your friends let you bleed, sleep tight with a knife becuase thats all you need. Rock a bye baby time to ends tour pain that you hide so well. Go to sleep no and fall straight to hell.




 
 
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