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Ho'kay so...counting down from as of today there are 16 days left till my Chrissypoo comes back biggrin He's flying down on the 8th (Sunday) for prom biggrin then leaving on the 5th (Saturday). He's staying so long just so we can go see Spiderman 3 together >_> heart We're really psyched about that.
As for prom it's gonna be the best ever :] I FINALLY found a diet that works for me and in the past 3 weeks I've dropped 5 lbs biggrin Strictly water diet. Fill yourself up on it so you're not hungry and when you are hungry watch calories, carbs, etc...
I put on SOOOO much weight in December - February because of that goddamned birth control -__-;; Man....Depo Provera (shot) is the worst thing a girl can go on. I'm so happy my doctor agreed with me on going on Trinessa (pill) XD It really has cut down my appetite :] birth control and weight watcher pill all-in-one. :]
So I've gotten lots of PMs from friends on Gaia asking who this "Dread" person is. Well :] his name is Christopher Robin (I know >w< that's so adorable <3) and he's 22 :] he lives in Toronto, Canada and he's Filipino. He's my hobbit ^_^ Same height and weight as me. I know we're adorable together. And he makes me the happiest person in the world ^______^ We met in a dorky way >.> We met on Lineage II XD Yeah alot of you have been asking me where I've disappeared to. Well....L2 is where I disappeared. But now I've got a subclass char that kicks a**! Prophet/Necro 78/77 ^___^ Chris has a Hawkeye/Warlord 78/78.
Anywho, back to prom. So I've made up my mind and he agrees. He's wearing a white tux with a vest to match my dress (pretty color :] it's coral) And he's gonna look so awesome >w< dark skin, dark hair, white tux. ^_^ Yowza.
What else is new? Oh yeah, I graduate in like 2 months razz yay! Erm...I quit my job biggrin and am trying desperately to get a job at EB Games in Jones Valley as Game Advisor (GA) because I friggin love the people in that store and I'm a cookoo for games. :]
Bler. Well I guess for those that miss me and stuff if you wanna add me to msn I have a new email :] named after my L2 char cause she's friggin awesome >.>
keilanatehprophet@hotmail.com
And to show you how awesome she is here is a picture of Kei and Dread <3 (Yes we're lesbians razz )
There you go :] leave comments or send PMs. Love you guys ^^
-Kei
 Astrith · Sat Mar 24, 2007 @ 12:05am · 0 Comments |
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Only 14 days left, 2 weeks exactly. :]
I went Christmas shopping for Chris tonight. He's gonna love all his Christmas presents. Especially the 6 ft tall one >_> heart
Rawr. So, I have the ACT on the 9th, at 8 a.m. to about 1 p.m. which just so happens to be the same day that Chris is getting here. So we have to find a later flight ._. I was kind of hoping he could get a flight in at like 6 in the morning? xd But then I'd be away from him for like 5 hours taking a test, so I guess it's better that he's coming in the afternoon.
The house is all clean and stuffs :] All that's missing is him.
And OMG : D TWK (TheWineKone) has added me to myspace and msn! For all you YouTube nerds you should know who that is, that's right, the mother ********' wine kone has become Kei's friends. Hecks yeah.
Tony a.k.a. TheWineKone he's so ******** awesome. XD You ever get a chance, go to YouTube.com and look up Hotness Prevails/Worst Video Ever
best video in the world. 3nodding
Astrith · Sun Nov 26, 2006 @ 08:17am · 0 Comments |
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Ok I know it's been a hells of a long time since I updated and alot has happened since then D:
We'll start off with Jeff. He and I are no longer a couple *sigh* Yeah, I know it's sad. crying But...hey! I'm happier =D I've been with a wonderful wonderful woooonderful guy named Chris a.k.a Dread for about 5 months now. He's my sexy Philipino man heart Anywho. Jeff and I are still friends I guess, we talk on occassion.
Ummm....ho'yeah! Keilana has subclassed on Lineage 2! She's now a Hierophant/Soultaker a.k.a Prophet/Necromancer. And I ******** own s**t D: I'm so happy. Here's a piece of advice, if you wanna make a healer to start off with in a game, but you want to kick some a** too. DON'T make a healer first. Make your attack class first then sub to your healer/buffer class. I learned the hard way D:
But, Dread is a Sagittarius/Dreadnought a.k.a Hawkeye/Warlord. So he kicks major a**. He and I are invincible >_> I swear to god. No one can beat us in a 1 vs 1 pvp. or 5 vs 2. XD But jes, I subclassed Kei at lvl 78 so I got prophecy of fire for my boo <3 And if you know about getting a prophet to lvl 78 on a 5x server. That takes a hells of a lot of patience and determination XD. But I did it for Dread <3
Umm...I'm a Senior now =D And it sucks. It really does. I don't wanna leave all my friends behind. I love you CJ and Stephanie <3 as for work, it's fun when it wants to be.
I absolutely am fed up with Jonathan. I hope his kid comes out deformed or something -.- After Christmas I'm done there, I love everyone else, ESPECIALLY Poppi <3 he's the sweetest old man in the world and I'd do anything for him. But Jonathan has just pushed me to my limit and I'm absolutely sick of him.
Anyway, before I blow up on my laptop I think I'll go. =D See ya!
Astrith · Sat Nov 04, 2006 @ 06:50pm · 0 Comments |
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It's been forever...so I'll make this one sort of short. |
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So it's been like 3 months since I've updated this thing, but I've been on Lineage II. It's like crack. I swear. But it's time for me to update to all the people who have forgotten me and probably won't read this.
So Prom is this weekend. I wasn't planning on going because Jeff couldn't make it, but my friends found out and are making me go. So mum and I yesterday went out and got my prom dress and shoes and shiz. I look great. It's one night I can be conceited with myself and believing I am the best and most gorgeous looking person there.
But with Jeff. I was thinking lastnight outside under the moon. And if any of you ever have done that you know that thinking under the moonlight in the silence can reveal the truths to even the oldest of lies..or things you didn't want to believe.
Point is, it made me realize that Jeff is 3000 miles away. And is missing out on so much in my life. And like tomorrow night, he's missing my first prom. And I'm just going to look so gorgeous, but I'm going by myself. Yeah, I'll have friends there. But I wanted to look beautiful for him too and not just my friends. =/
And next year is my senior year, and it's going to be packed full of stuff, and he's going to miss all of it. And it just made me realize, that I am tired of long distance relationships. Just so tired of them. He says that "This is just the beginning of the rest of our lives." and he's right, but he doesn't see that the beginning is the most important part, and he's missing it all. In a way, if we stay together, I feel like I'll move out to California to be with a stranger.
I just want someone to be with now. Not a year down the line. And he says, "It'll be worth the wait" and it probably will. But, where did my teenage years go? =/ I spent them alone in my room on my computer talking to him. I don't want to look back later on in my life and see what I did. What a pathetic teenage life I had.
Jeff, I just want you to realize I'm tired of long distance. And I guess you can call it an ultimatum if you want. But you missing my first prom hurts me more than anything ever has...more than Travis did, more than Jackie did, more than you will ever know. And there's no way you can make that up to me... So where do we go from here? v_v
Astrith · Fri Apr 14, 2006 @ 04:53pm · 1 Comments |
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For those of you that know me, you know the way I am, how I think (most of the time), and how I feel about most things.
My close friends know that I'm a happy person when I'm around a lot of people, it's when I'm alone that things start going downhill. When I'm alone I think too much, I know this. And it's not like you can just shut your brain down and stop thinking; no matter how hard you try.
Since Jeff left the only time I have been happy is when I'm at school, surrounded by people. A place he and I never went to together. It's when I come home that memories and feelings start flooding back in my mind. My room, the kitchen, the backyard even; it's all filled with memories for me. They would be happy if I had someone here to share them with, but the person who means the most to me and who I made those memories with is 3000 miles away.
Downtown Huntsville, where Jeff, me, my bestfriend, and her boyfriend went; we all have our names carved into a pole on the walkway...Adam <3's Becky and Amanda + Jeff. Since he's left I've been back there once, and that's probably the most meaningful and painful spot in this whole city for me; besides my bed which I have to sleep in everynight...
For you guys who are currently going through a long distance relatioinship and plan on meeting the other, I really do wish you the best of luck. Because when that person has to leave, you both will know exactly what Jeff and I feel like right now. And it's the worst feeling in the world. For those of you who have had a long distance relationship in the past you know what I'm talking about. But if you and your other never met then you can't really compare to me. Everyone says I'm crazy for having a boyfriend on the west coast, while I'm on the East.
Jeff wants to move here, but he doesn't understand that's a waste of money when we'll have to move back to California in one year. That and I don't want him to feel out of place out here. He knows no-one. He says all he needs is me, but when it comes down to it, I'm not the only person that can make him happy. If I can't keep myself happy, how does he expect me to keep him happy?
I do have depression; it's a horomonal imbalance. And whether my family wants to admit I have a problem or not is their choice. They won't do anything about it. Last time I mentioned it to my mum, that I thought I had it; that I had all the symptoms. She got mad and cried.."Tell me you have depression when you have hundreds of dollars in bills to pay and a marriage that's falling apart! I might as well go slit my wrists becase I must have depression too!" What do you think I have when I tried committing suicide 2 years ago? =|
All I can say is, I need something to keep myself busy. Something to keep myself from thinking, if any of you have suggestions please feel free to comment, or if it's more private feel free to PM me. Thanks for reading.
Just keep putting up with me Jeff, only a little longer...<3
I love you. v_v
Astrith · Wed Jan 25, 2006 @ 10:29pm · 4 Comments |
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"Alone"
Now that you've gone my bed is so lonely
heartbroken and left with an open wound; never-healing
Living off the feeling of your arms around me, ripped away all so suddenly
The feeling of emptiness again has returned, the love we once shared, distance has burned
Incapable of holding those precious memories, slipping through my fingers, like sand in an hourglass
The days are empty and void of any feeling, yet you stand so sure, not sharing in the pain and tears
Telling what is, what was, what will be
Telling me how I feel, it's come down to this
You don't know me at all, you promised to catch me but through your arms I fall
Not even reaching for something to hold onto
I fall peacefully, no one can touch me, hurt me, tell me what I feel
I fall remembering my life, falling faster and faster
I can't remember your face, your smile, your touch...but the smell still lingers
A painful smell that stabs at my soul, removing my heart, again I'm un-whole
I fall harder and faster, images flashing by, all I'm wanting and wishing for is to Die...
I feel the air whistle by, I'm close to the ground
Oh God...this is it
....Goodbye
And as I collide with the ground at fullspeed
I shoot up in bed, trying to breathe
Sweating and crying, gasping for air, I look to my side to find it empty and bare...
It's then, the first thing I realize everyday...
Your heart isn't with me...and I'm completely alone...
Astrith · Mon Jan 16, 2006 @ 10:50pm · 0 Comments |
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Astrith · Mon Jan 02, 2006 @ 10:09pm · 1 Comments |
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Best 7 months of my life. |
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Where have the past 7 months of my life gone? I haven't noticed until now have fast the time has really gone by. I've been so busy with school, and my relationship with Jeff, planning Becky's homecoming, and everything else. Time does fly when you're having fun, but I wouldn't necessarily call school "fun"...ok I would. But only the friends part though.
Well, my Christmas has really been the best Christmas ever. Becky pulled a doozy on me, she came home the 24th. I had no clue, I was expecting her the 27th. And what kills me is, my grandma and mum know how badly I've missed her, xd She came by while I was with my brother, aunt, and uncle at my granny's house. And told them not to tell me she was home, that she would come back later when the blinds were closed. Well I come home and the first thing my mum says to my grandma is "Close the blinds." I thought it was strange, cause it was still early, but I didn't pay attention. Then about an hour later, the door bell rings. My grandma answers it, says it's for me, and I get up and see Adam (Becky's boyfriend), now I haven't seen him pretty much at all since Becky left in July. So I say, "What're you doing here? I haven't seen you in five..." then Becky pops off from the side "BOO!!" and I fell over, I got up I was screaming and crying, I was in (needless to say) utter and complete shock. xp I was screaming so loud, a couple of my neighbors turned on their lights and peeked out their windows to see what was going on. That was the best Christmas present ever. Having my best friend come home from the military to spend Christmas with me. Thankyou Becky, I love you girl.
Then lastnight, I went to Christmas dinner with Becky, Adam, and Becca (Becky's cousin) to Decatur. It was Adam's grandma's house. Their family is so crazy I swear. But, it was revealed that Adam has indeed proposed to Becky on Christmas Eve, and she did in fact say yes biggrin So yes folks, the rumors are true.
She was given a quarter karot diamond. Nothing fancy, just simple the way she wanted it. Congratulations Becky and Adam!
As for me and Jeff (I'm sure some of you are just dying to know).
He is on his way out here, he will be here in less than 9 hours, and zOMG!!! I'm so friggin' nervous. I went to bed at 2 a.m. after I got off the phone with him, and woke up at 8 a.m. @_@ I can't sleep, I've already gotten the Christmas tree down, cleaned the house, skinned my knuckles crying owie...and now I'm sitting here updating my journal.
My Christmas wasn't the greatest, I feel like I got ripped off. Well, everyone knows my parents got me a $1000 laptop, custom built for me cool plzkthnx.
Well my frother just had to have a computer better than mine. So he got his aunt and uncle to get him a Dell XPS 400, $969 it has a 19 inch monitor, 80 gigs, 1 gig RAM, the works. It's a monster needless to say. Well then he got a PSP from them, and I got a Gamecube neutral Which I didn't even want. I wanted the PSP[/b not the Gamecube. I mean, if you are going to get me a Gamecube, at least get me Mariokart neutral I don't like Mario Party 7. But all I got was clothes and a Gamecube.
Well I come home already knowing what Josh got, he got a Razor cellphone and a new bike. I got a picture of my laptop (which won't arrive until tomorrow, Tuesday) and a comforter and wired mouse (I wanted wireless) but oh well. Whatever.
But Jeff will be here in less than 9 hours @______@;; I'm so friggin' nervous it's ridiculous. My tummy's all tied up in knots, not to mention because of feminine reasons I'm bloated @_@. But yes, I'm going to go and try to keep myself busy until 6:30 which is when I will take my shower, and I'll use the next 2 hours to get myself ready sweatdrop But I'm just glad I have my bestfriend here with me to deal with this. heart Loves you Becky!
But I'm gonna go try to keep myself busy until then, I hope you all had a Merry Christmas!
-Sayonara
Astrith · Mon Dec 26, 2005 @ 04:08pm · 1 Comments |
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