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For Him

When I was just a noob I met him in the art forums.
He seemed so charming and I felt happy when I talked to him. Even for just meeting him... it felt so right.
After talking and getting to know him I found myself getting deep emotions for this boy. I enjoyed talking to him. I always did, he was the only one of my friends that made me so happy no matter what happened in my life... he would always be there to cheer me right back up.
I admitted it to every other friend that I have that I liked this boy very very much. So much that I couldn't get him off of my mind. Though I could never of told him that.. He might of thought that I was weird and not talk to me ever again...
Then one day, my dream came true. He seemed so shy that day and I wondered and wondered why. Then he asked me a question that I have been dying to be asked from him. I liked him so much that I couldn't of said no to him. That day... he asked me to be his girlfriend even though we haven't known each other for very long. I was shocked... I never thought that he liked me back. I thought he just saw me as a friend. I instantly said yes and he was very happy. The time that we spent together was amazing, I felt so right with him and never wanted to let him go. He made me laugh and sometimes made me think that he was just too good for me. So kind that I just couldn't believe that he was actually mind. That moment.. my life was complete. He is my missing puzzle piece.
And then that moment ended so quickly. I had a friend who hated him with every being that she had. She never said why and never has to this day. She made me end it with him. I didn't know what she would do if I didn't I remember crying for days... almost weeks after I did break his heart... I felt so bad and I felt very empty inside. I never should of done it.
I thought of him more and more as the time went by after that.. the deep desire to see how he was doing built up inside me so much that I couldn't take it anymore.
Finally, I got the courage to go on gaia and talk to him. That's when we started talking again.
I found out that he had a girlfriend and I hated her. I hated her because she had him... she got to talk to him every day and she was in my way. Although I'm sure she was a nice girl but I was just majorly jealous of her. As the time passed by I've been hearing that He and she haven't been doing so well... I thought to myself... "Yes!" I felt bad though.. for thinking that : (
The day finally came after I have been waiting and waiting.. They broke up.
I was over joyed and I felt that I could get him back. That's what I wanted all along even when I was with someone else. I thought of him.. Is that bad? Is it good?
I was so nervous about asking him back out and I kind of eased into it. I took forever to ask... like.. 15 minutes. I didn't think he still liked me when I asked him and I felt kind of stupid for asking at the same time. But... then that changed, he said yes. I was so happy that I couldn't stop smiling.
We are still together to this day now.. almost 3 months now and I feel as if we can make it work for a long time. I love him deeply and never stop thinking about him. He makes me laugh, blush, giggle, and makes me feel amazing. I have him once more and now I am never letting him go.