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 Yunacat · Mon Apr 03, 2006 @ 03:17pm · 0 Comments |
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-Zuru zuru.. zuru zuru..- |
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.|-.|Wear the grudge like a crown of negativity.
Calculate what we will or will not tolerate.
Desperate to control all and everything.
Unable to forgive your scarlet lettermen.
Clutch it like a cornerstone. Otherwise it all comes down.
Justify denials and grip 'em to the lonesome end.
Clutch it like a cornerstone. Otherwise it all comes down.
Terrified of being wrong. Ultimatum prison cell.
Saturn ascends, choose one or ten. Hang on or be humbled again.
Clutch it like a cornerstone. Otherwise it all comes down.
Justify denials and grip 'em to the lonesome end.
Saturn ascends, comes round again.
Saturn ascends, the one, the ten. Ignorant to the damage done.
Wear the grudge like a crown of negativity.
Calculate what we will or will not tolerate.
Desperate to control all and everything.
Unable to forgive your scarlet lettermen.
Wear the grudge like a crown. Desperate to control.
Unable to forgive. And we're sinking deeper.
Defining, confining, controlling, and we're sinking deeper.
Saturn comes back around to show you everything
Let's you choose what you will not see and then
Drags you down like a stone or lifts you up again
Spits you out like a child, light and innocent.
Saturn comes back around. Lifts you up like a child or
Drags you down like a stone
To consume you till you choose to let this go.
Give away the stone.
Let the oceans take and transmutate this cold and fated anchor.
Give away the stone.
Let the waters kiss and transmutate these leaden grudges into gold.
Let go .|-.|
-The Grudge by Tool
I like this song..i dunno why i chose this one, but i did.
Anyway, nothing much to update after the last post. The last post is still how i feel...
Well..at least one thing has changed. I cleaned my room.. AND I CAN SEE THE WALLS!!! I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO SEE THE WALLS!! *shoves posters over it* X3 THERE!!!
Yunacat · Fri Feb 24, 2006 @ 11:09pm · 0 Comments |
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.|-.| You're such an inspiration for the ways
That I'll never ever choose to be
Oh so many ways for me to show you
How the savior has abandoned you
******** your God
Your Lord and your Christ
He did this
Took all you had and
Left you this way
Still you pray, you never stray
Never taste of the fruit
You never thought to question why
It's not like you killed someone
It's not like you drove a hateful spear into his side
Praise the one who left you
Broken down and paralyzed
He did it all for you
He did it all for you
Oh so many many ways for me to show you
How your dogma has abandoned you
Pray to your Christ, to your god
Never taste of the fruit
Never stray, never break
Never---choke on a lie
Even though he's the one who did this to you
You never thought to question why
Not like you killed someone
It's Not like you drove a spiteful spear into his side
Talk to Jesus Christ
As if he knows the reasons why
He did it all for you
Did it all for you
He did it all for you.. .|-.|
- Lyrics from Judith by A Perfect Circle
Not only has this song been playing half to death in my head lately, it's also perfect to describe partially how i feel... Especially the first line...
My mom's friend's house got put under investigation for illegal gambling (which there was no actual illegal gambling going on.. > > wink , so mom thought it would be nice to hold a game once for her here at our house. Since then, she's held the game here, and it's starting to get annoying. It's okay ONCE IN A WHILE, but EVERY WEEKEND!? Furthermore, on Fridays too!? She said she's only gonna hold it once on Friday, but that's EXACTLY what she said about a Saturday game too. And now look! Dad bought her a poker table and now they have it every Saturday! It really pisses me off because this house is too small for such a thing, the computer is in the living room (no privacy anymore on Saturdays since she holds it between 7pm-3am and that's EXACTLY when i'm on the computer! > < wink , and i feel uncomfortable with a bunch of people i bearly know running around the house, even if i AM in my room.. > < And mom's such a kid about it! She keeps saying "Well..dad likes it too.." "This is my house." "Blah blah blah blah blah blah" (the blah is used to ignore me..she repeats it REALLY loud trying to cover my words with that stuff.. > < wink . I feel like i'm not only put out of my room..but my own life! Weekends are the only time i can hang out with my friends at my house in the living room, and she can do it all week long, but she choses my time for it! I usually don't hang out in the living room all that much EXCEPT on weekends.. I feel like i need to get out sometimes, and yet i feel like i'm being grounded..trapped..stuffed into my room my whole life. She keeps telling me "If you don't like it, move out!" but i'm not old enough to move out, and if i seriously tried to, she's kill me!! > < She doesn't consider how me and sis feel! I HATE IT, DISPISE IT, LOATH IT, HATE IT WITH A PASSION, and sis does too, yet she ignores our feelings and only seems to care about herself when it comes to this.. I swear if my grades drop, i'm blaming her... I have a decent 3.5 GPA right now and i don't want to lose it, but i feel like i'm breaking down inside because i'm being so ignored..
/endrant
Yunacat · Tue Feb 21, 2006 @ 10:58pm · 0 Comments |
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One of my least fav holidays is Valentines Day. We don't get the day off from school, all the couples are together and make me feel lonely, i only get stuff from my mom and/or dad, and worst of all..PINK. One of my least fav colors is EVERYWHERE... @_@ (the only time i like it is when it's matched well with black..)
heart heart heart heart heart heart heart <-is everywhere...
Today was no different than it usually is..go through school, people hand each other gifts as i watch, wishing i had "someone special, just for me", just as Chii of Chobits says it... > >
Other than this boring holiday, i got honor roll again in school.
I REALLY hope i can get my hands on a game i want called Guitar Hero. It seems like SO much fun!!! *has played it in a store called Game Crazy and loved it*
Yunacat · Wed Feb 15, 2006 @ 02:02am · 0 Comments |
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(i'm not good at naming the entries, lol)
Well..so far this year, i've had honor-roll, and that's a big change for me, considering i usually get at least 2 Ds in the first 9 weeks.. But i'll probably be getting a D in English this 9 weeks.. Why? Because i have an essay i need to do and i have no idea what to do.. I need to write 2-3 paragraphs on why the Author wrote the Scarlete Letter, and i haven no clue why... > > Guess i'll just let it go and accept the zero, because, unless i get some help from someone, there's nothing i can do.. i was thinking about asking around on gaia (which i think i will..) and stuff..
I'm still on vacation, but next week we gotta go back to "hell".. > <
I really dun wanna go..
About Christmas, i got some really cool things, like an MP3 player, and some games and stuff, and some shirts i like, and a cool skirt too (i like SOME skirts..as long as they go to my knees or further..).
I even got my bday gift early from my gramparents! They gave me a GBA SP and Harvest Moon: More Friends of Mineral Town for it!^^ My bday is the 31st of December (it says 30 on gaia because of a glitch where, if i put it on 31, it marks it as Jan 1st the next year.. > < wink . Wonder what my parents are gonna get me..i hope i get a Wireless Router! (i REALLY don't want PJs like sis got.. > < wink
In even more recent news, i'm planning on applying for a job. I'm hoping to get a job at Hollywood Video, but i have to find out some more info first...
That's all i can think of to add to this journal entry.. And don't forget to check out my DA account at http://yunacat.deviantart.com/
Yunacat · Thu Dec 29, 2005 @ 06:52am · 0 Comments |
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-o_____O;; School..is back...- |
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WAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! NUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!! School is back!!!!! Nuuuuuu!!!!
Well, at least my teachers are nice..and the classes aren't so hard..but the damn walk just gets me every time! I swear! In just my monday (which has all classes), you get to see every bit of the first floor of the school!!!!! (sis said so on back to school night) Grrraaarrrrr.... > >
*puts a sign up in front of the school that says "Welcome back to hell!"*
Yunacat · Thu Sep 29, 2005 @ 10:40pm · 0 Comments |
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It's so boring... Nothing happens during the summer. I ask for things, but never get them though they come up with a "maybe" or "wait a lil bit". I wanted an iPod mini 4GB and i'd even pay part of it. Since my bday is during December, that means i bearly ever get anything, so if they give it to me during the summer, then i'll actually get something. My mom said "maybe" but to me that means "no" now... >>
*sigh*
*looks around*
*sigh*
*slump*
*sigh*
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Yunacat · Fri Jul 01, 2005 @ 07:36pm · 0 Comments |
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School's over! School's over!! SCHOOL'S OVER!!!!!! XDDD
Sorry..just had to get that out..^^
Yunacat · Fri Jun 17, 2005 @ 10:49pm · 1 Comments |
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