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when something happens in your life and you have no control, you feel empty and fustrated.when its the life of others u hate when you cant contol it.death is a sad thing even when you cant do anything about it, it dwells on you and you fell empty and some lead to suicide and lots lead to depresson. Me i just walk for days staight looking and thinking that its just a dream and they are still alive. i would never smile for 2 weeks and just keep searching until i find a light or someone to talk to. crying is a thing of the past and i havent cryed for 4 years.happyness can lead you away from this lonelyness but it never stops and its like a giant black pit where only you are there and theres a look in your eyes that pieces staight though you. this was how i was feeling for 6 years until i found 1 person that cared for me and that pulled me out of this lonlyness and i had hope. so now i cherish all my friends like loved ones even though the can be cokky and silly.
I love them

i hope you understand this.