The way RL things are going right now...I just can't think. I just got verbally bitchslaped by my sister who, at first, was (I assumed...yeah, yeah, never...i know, i know) open and willing to help me save money by allowing me to collect government money while appearing to stay at her place when I'm actually occupying my mom's while she's away in the Philippines (why now, I have no idea...if you guys are up about what's going on there)...she'll be back (I PRAY) in February, till then I'll be living rent free there...anyways...so my sister decides to give me a useless stern repremand about not stepping on toes (translation: not to fight with mom) although, I wasn't doing it delibrately...I'm just one that, if you push me, I'll push back...no matter who you are...I'll just put it that way. Long story short, I'm being treated like the family black sheep (I'm sure you know what that's like Ky), and well, out of desparation, I took my mom's and sister's advice. And now I feel like I'd rather be dead cuz I figuratively sold my soul to a family devil for the exchange to save money. Plus the headaches (probably cuz of what's been going on) have been going from mild to blinding (I've had maybe 2hrs of sleep per night for the passed two months), I won't be seen by a nuerologist specialist to figure out what's going on till January...so I'm gonna be suffering till then.
So this is partially why I won't be around...and I'm just not feeling up to:
1) whine about my problems here (as my sister puts it, I have an "ego"...so maybe it's my "ego" talking)
2) I'm not feeling all that happy and jolly
3) chances are I probably won't be able to get onto the computer much as I'm looking for a second job.
You all have been great, and I'm going to miss you and the good times.
· Fri Oct 16, 2009 @ 12:21am · 1 Comments