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Hell.
What have I been doing?

Maybe it doesn't seem like that much of a deal anymore, but somehow I still feel guilt burning inside me.
Sometimes, I really seem to think that maybe I'm just trying to push him away..
Maybe in the end, it's what's best for us.

Maybe it's time to release him...from me.
But then, a part of me still wants to hold on...just for even a second more...

And then things would go hectic, I'd get in depression mode...and then things go even more...hectic.
Because I start to seek out to others.

And use them for my own selfish purposes.