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You Are More Cutthroat Than You Think

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Yes, you do have that killer instinct lurking in you.
And while you may not be actually cutting throats anytime soon...
You certainly don't mind clawing your way to the top.

Are You Cutthroat?
Your Luck Quotient: 75%

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You have a high luck quotient.
More often than not, you've felt very lucky in your life.
You may be randomly lucky, but it's probably more than that.
Optimistic and open minded, you take advantage of all the luck that comes your way.

How Lucky Are You?
You're a Pack Rat in Training

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You know those crazy old people with a ton of video tapes and cats?
Well, you're training to be one. Time to do some spring cleaning. Even if it isn't spring!

Are You a Pack Rat?
You Are 96% Open Minded

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You are so open minded that your brain may have fallen out!
Well, not really. But you may be confused on where you stand.
You don't have a judgmental bone in your body, and you're very accepting.
You enjoy the best of every life philosophy, even if you sometimes contradict yourself.

How Open Minded Are You?
You Are 81% Non Conformist

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You're incredibly strange. And a weirdness like yours takes skill to cultivate!
No one really understands you. And you're cool with that. You just hope you never have to understand them!

Are You a Nonconformist?

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I write
But i have no words
I decide to listen to the world
They watch me
They think im not normal
And i agree
A girls sings
I try not to look
She seems nice
But not normal
I look, unable to stop myself
But shes gone again
I see others laugh and chat
Another sits in the corner, lost in his own world
Me of course
I soon realizes the singing is from another
I look at the new girls of the same voice
I find the girl who sings, but i already know here
Of course, she is already taken
Again i start to write words
Looking to my right i see gossip
Secretly looking at me, no idea that im listening to them laugh and giggle
This house is bathed in the colors of light, making me miss my dark little corner of the world
Once again i fill a page of this book
I have thoughts of other places
The thoughts of the dark pits
Thoughts of fire
Again i hear singing but again im confused
I think its from a girl
A friend, but, still something im unsure of, is what i find.
I stare,she soon stops singing and goes silent
She must have sensed me staring for she turned and she met my eyes...
And then, of all the things she could say, she says "What?"
She looked nervous
I say "nothing.", stare for a moment more, then turn back to my book
I continue to write, she comes over and she asks "wat'cha doin?"
I reply with the most obvious answer "writing." she begins to read and i continue to write.
After a few lines i close the book "that's enough for you"
She walks away
And again i open my book to write, already halfway through my second page
And i decide that im done for now
I write my last line, thought of her in my head
And i bid you farewell.

i stare.
i stare into this dark pit of oblivion.
i stare, and i wait.
wait for something, anyhting to happen.
i stare and wait, wait and stare,
and yet, i still see nothing.
Ive been waiting for centuries.
staring into this five sided pool of swirling black smoke.
waiting for anyhting
a bubble, a ripple.
then it hits me.
i laugh and cry, but never make a sound.
Ive been a fool.
Ive been looking down and staring, and never looked around
i look up.
and i see what Ive been waiting for.
the perfection.
the eyes.
the smile.
i look up,
and i see you.
you open your arms, and i rush to you.
your arms close around me,and mine around you
i cry tears of joy!
then i stopped crying,feel nothing.
i look up, see nothing.
so i go back to stare into the pool of blackness you come from
i go back to my torture
i got to wait for another century,
just so that i may hold you again.
for another brief, fleeting moment.
i will never stop.
Because i love you either way.

THEY TRY TO DESTROY DARKNESS WITH LIGHT
but once the light is out... the darkness comes to fill the void
no matter how hard you try, the darkness will always come back
even the sun runs out of light.
the darkness will rise.

The Darkness...
It closes around you like a shroud.
It starts to consume you and you scream,
But no matter how loud you yell,
You make no noise.
Don't ever try.. you cannot tell.
Don't try to escape.
There is no escape from the endless darkness,
For the second it touched you you were gone forever.
All you see is your endless torture.
And i am you captor!

You long for the sight of a white cloud.
Or maybe the creamy taste of...ice cream?
But like i said... you'll never tell.
You will not hear any voice.
You will never escape my hell.
Don't try to relate.
For all of your sorrow, it makes you heartless.
You can never escape... NEVER.
I will find out how you bleed for sure.
Then i realize...i am you. And i am my raptor...

So once again i try to break free.
And i scream and scream.
But there is no such thing as free.
So i scream and scream.

God has forsaken me...

As the angel sets in.
The demon within.
The angels corrupt.
The demons disrupt.

Your soul,
From a bowl.
I draw memory.

You hear the music,
You hear the drums.
You see the drummer.
He looks like a bum.
But you don't care,
You like the beat,
And you jump up,
And do a jig with you feet.
The music goes deep down inside,
It touches your soul.
I wonder what it taste like...
Foul and cold?
Or maybe its warm,
Like a night in summer.
Maybe maybe..
But its not.
What a bummer :}

Its amazing how the pain feels,
I embrace it it with great love and great fascination.
Whenever they start up the reels,
I defy the camera with confrontation.

I wish for the death of others,
For i want to feel there pain.
Almost like the blood of lovers,
I have everything and nothing to gain.

Its amazing how you seem to stare,
When i obviously don't care.
When everything is made to be broken,
I want you to take this token.

The way that the blood flows.
The rivers of it in hell.
The length of it nobody knows.
But the thing is you'll never tell.

The way i felt you last night...
The most beautiful sight...

Its amazing, the blood of lovers..
The way it flows like water in a river.
Its they way that i look at others.
I'm never the receiver... always the giver.


I sit in a black and white field, surrounded by black and white men.

I sit. I wallow in the sorrow of my soul. The pain i feel inside is immeasurable. But tomorrow that all changes.

Tomorrow i am free of this body.
Free of this mind.
Free of this world.
Free of this soul.

Tomorrow i am reborn and my wrath on this pitiful race of humanity shall not be a swift strike. It shall be slow. Everyone shall suffer a slow, painful punishment. Even the brave and good hearted will not be spared.

But the most corrupt hearts shall become my elite.
I shall make a new world.
A world of darkness. A world of pain. A world were all of them shall suffer the way i did.

When you broke my heart ... you doomed my soul.
and in turn, you doomed us all.
And i pray this one thing... that your soul be the most corrupt.

R: Good Boyfriend or Girlfriend
O: Has One of the Best Personalities Ever
B: Loves People
E: Has Gourgeous Eyes
R: Good Boyfriend or Girlfriend
T: Very Good Kisser

Spell your name and see what it means:

A: Hot
B: Loves People
C: Good Kisser
D: Makes People Laugh
E: Has Gourgeous Eyes
F: Really Wild and Crazy
G: Very Outgoing
H: Easy to Fall in Love With
I: Loves to Laugh and Smile
J: Is Really Sweet
K: Really Silly
L: Smile is to Die For
M: Makes Dating Fun
N: Loving and Caring
O: Has One of the Best Personalities Ever
P: Popular With All Types of People
Q: Hyperactive
R: Good Boyfriend or Girlfriend
S: Cute
T: Very Good Kisser
U: Is Very Sexual
V: Not Judgmental
W: Very Broad Minded
X: Never Let People Tell You What To Do
Y: Is Loved by Everyone
Z: Can be Funny and Sweet at Times




Edmund: The goatee, the sexism, the smooth jazz... I'm afraid these are all textbook symptoms of one of mankind's most feared conditions.

Dr. Singh: Oh, my! What condition is that?


Edmund: Pure Smexyness





Edmund: Good heavens... such rapid and uncontrolled puberty can mean only one thing. Timmy, I have terrible news.

Timmy: Oh no! What is it? What's wrong with me?

Edmund: I fear that your constitution has been so weakened by years of mutation, Gro-Gain poisoning, and general shoddy treatment from your caretaker--

Dr. Singh: Hey!

Edmund: --that your body has developed a terrible mutation: your pituitary gland has swollen severely, and you are now experiencing a condition known as... Megapuberty.

Timmy: Megapuberty?

Edmund: Megapuberty.

Dr. Singh: Megapuberty!?

Edmund: Yes. Megapuberty


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