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It's how I feel about him. <3 |
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Everyday I go with out talking to him makes me feel horrible. When I see him, it's like everything stops, and there's only him. I ussually feel like I'm gonna fall over, but then we hug and he keeps me on my feet. When we hold eachother I never wanna let go. I close my eyes and take it in, and then I feel so sad when we have to stop. Ever since our first kiss, I've known he was mae for me, that I was born to tell him that I love him, that I need him. Sure we've hit some bumps, but in the end we've made it through. Nothing could possibley come between us now, except for distance. It's so hard, cause there are the times where he comes over, then we go to the movies a few days later, then the next week after that we go to the movies, and that ussually around the time where I'm at my best. But then there's the times where we go 1-3 weeks without seeing eachother at all, and it really hurts.
I must say I hate it when hsi friends, especially the girls, add me and talk to me on MySpace. a good portion of his friends that are girls are comepletely in love with him, and hate me simpley for the fact that I have him. I always feel like I have to try my best to be perfect, and I always end up leaving a bad impression. I wake up in the morning and the first thing I do, even if I don't really notice, is grab my phone and check it for messages from him. I tend to have dreams about him, but they're not ussually all that great, seeing as reality is so much better now. Even my parents can see how much I love him, and I know how I must drive my friends insane from how much I talk about him. He's always on my mind, and I hope I'm always on his. There are days where we just spend 3 solid hours talking about how much we love eachother. I must say that's my third favorite thing to do that involves him<3 He can make me laugh, or at least make me smile, no matter what, and you have no idea how badly I need that some days.
Everything about him is just so perfect and amazing to me, I would simpley die if I lost him again. I like to think about the future, the what-ifs, like what if we ended up staying together forever? What if we really did end up getting married, having kids, living together... And now when he talks about forever, I can tell he means it. He tells me I'm beautiful, he makes sure to kick anyone's a** if they comment on me being a year younger than him. Sometimes he jsut sits there and stares at my eyes, and then after about 5 minutes he tells me I have amazing eyes. He lets me lay on him and fall asleep, even though he's never aware that I'm asleep [[:3]]. When we kiss, it's just the best thing ever. August 6th 2008, the day we had our first kiss, was the absolute BEST day of my life. Then there's the day he realized we were meant to be, and decided to make it happen. I told him to promise to never leave me. He told me to promise to never LET him leave.
I have to say I love Luke for hooking us up 2 years ago that one summer, and I must apologize for leaving and going to Italy for 2 weeks that summer. For sure we're naming our first boy after you Luke!! I have to say Emma really helped too, because just by listening to me, she made me realize that him and I were meant to be that saddening month or so where I was so broken inside. Me and her, we're tight as PB&&J. And to her Danny's like an older brother. These two really helped us, and I must say they are the the two main people other then Danny&&I that can see how much we're so in love with eachother. Emma always seemed to see that we were always gonna end up together.
I could write for days at a time talking about how much I love Danny, but there's the things that words can never express. I hope him and I stay together forever, I just love him so much, it's insanity <333
 Toxiic Lollipops · Sat Mar 07, 2009 @ 06:46am · 0 Comments |
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