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<table border='0' cellpadding='5' cellspacing='0' width='600'><tr><td><img src='http://images.quizfarm.com/11446216414d4a9ad7b99c6865.jpg'></td><td> You scored as <b>Loneliness</b>. People who expirience loneliness tend to cling to others, attending their every need jsut for the comfort of being noticed by another human being.<br><br><table border='0' width='300' cellspacing='0' cellpadding='0'><tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Loneliness</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='83' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>83%</font></td></tr><tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Cold</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='83' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>83%</font></td></tr><tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Fakity</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='83' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>83%</font></td></tr><tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Sadness</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='83' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>83%</font></td></tr><tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Fear</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='67' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>67%</font></td></tr><tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Anger</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='50' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>50%</font></td></tr><tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Being Consumed</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='50' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>50%</font></td></tr><tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Consumed</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='50' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>50%</font></td></tr><tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Seduction</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='17' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>17%</font></td></tr></td></tr></table><br><a href='http://quizfarm.com/test.php?q_id=173856'>Which of the Dark Emotions are you?</a><br><font face='Arial' size='1'>created with <a href='http://quizfarm.com'>QuizFarm.com</a></font></table>


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Just a question...one of my many questions that I don't seem to find any answers for. Maybe it's just depression setting in, I have no clue. I just feel hurt...even though I feel like I'm the one causing this hurt. Guilt? Maybe that's it...

...why?

I feel broken, extremely so. Never got much time to brood on my own character before, and I've noticed...I'm not the way I want to be. I can't keep my mouth shut when I'm playing around, and then I end up hurting someone. I've lost too many "friends" because of this...

Why don't I get anything right anymore? Everything I do, I end up failing horribly at it. Friendships, school, work. The way I am isn't what many people want to be around. I lie, I cheat...at one time I stole. And you know the worst part...? I liked it.

Even though I'm reassured that I'm fine, that I'm a great person...it's so deeply implanted on me that I'm unwanted. My former peers, other adults, and even some of my family have beaten it into me too badly. I want to say I'm good...though, I only see my faults.

I didn't type this up for anyone to pity me...I typed it up because people wanted to know why I act like I do. This is the way I am, this is Neecha. I'm still unsure of it...though I think that no one would really care if I just ran away...

Myesh. stare The wonderful and oh-so fabulous Neecha is going back to school. Notice my thrilled state. neutral

3nodding It is true! This makes me in good spirits. IT MAKES ME WANNA LIMBO! *carribean music plays* Neecha out!

quiz results...random order.

<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/P/PainfulBliss/1113123757_te.reality.JPG" border="0" alt="Reality"><br>Your wise quote is: "Reality bites with a<br>variety of sizes of teeth"(-Tony Follari)<br>As a person, you think life is just plain<br>painful, horrible and everything else you don't<br>like. Happy people confuse you. Alot. I mean,<br>why are they so happy anyway? You are depressed<br>and perhaps utterly alone and live life rather<br>montone. You feel there is no reason to really<br>be here and feel helpless.
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<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/U/Urchin/1036794232_sinuyasha1.jpg" border="0" alt=""><br>Your Inuyasha! You are a punk, you like to pick<br>fights and hate being in school, your grades<br>are slipping but you don't care, you are having<br>to much fun to actually do anything about it!
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<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/P/PainfulBliss/1112529424_izB_maniac.JPG" border="0" alt="Maniac killer"><br><p align="left"><b>You are a maniac<br>killer.</b><br>It doesn't matter who they are and what they<br>have or haven't done. You still want to kill<br>them. And for a simple reason only; it's fun.<br>Seeing people in pain is like ecstasy. Maybe<br>you have some sort of mental problems or you<br>are this way because of previous deep scars,<br>only you know. But now you are sadistic and<br>maybe you only like to see a special group of<br>people be in pain (e.g. preps). However you are<br>not the most social person in the bunch and<br>people think you are weird. That bothers you<br>somewhat but atleast you can entertain yourself<br>with daydreaming about killing them. After all,<br>they have no idea what's coming.<br><br><b>Main weapon:</b> Explosives and torture<br>equpiment<br><b>Quote:</b> "Insanity: a perfect<br>rational adjustment to an insane world" - <br>R.D. Lang<br><b>Facial expression:</b> Wicked smile</p>
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A song I wrote...hope you all like.

When will I know when the clock has stopped?
Time is inevitable; nothing is immortal
Dust to dust, lay me down in my coffin
Don't yell out, don't curse, and please don't say that I didn't warn you,
Time in inevitable, nothing is immortal...

Fly into my arms, far away from here
Never let me hear of regrets
Fly towards the sun, burning inside
Ablaze with passion, shining with the moon

If there is a way that we can avert this
I know not of it, I don't guide my own hand
Separated by brick walls, fury makes them stronger
When will they break down? When will they crumble?
Time is inevitable; nothing is immortal...

Fly into my arms, far away from here
Never let a tear escape your eyes
Fly until you cannot breathe anymore
Asleep in your deathbed, peaceful at last

Would you regret this?
Would you forget them?
Do you remember who you are?
Do you remember who you love?
Do you remember how to run?

Fly into my arms, far away from you
Never say you won't miss them
Fly until your ebony wings are gone
Caught and captured, your cage is undone

Fly into my arms, far away from you
Do you remember how to breathe?
Fly until the sun dissipates from view
Let the water rush in, replacing the air...

Well...not feeling too good. I threw up 4 times today. I have good friends who care...I dont know anymore. I'm very tired.

I had that happen today...i felt like I was on crack or something....my friends said that I look high...but as soon as I had some soda, I was fine.

Meh, not feeling well...probably because tomorrow, I have to go to school.... stressed