I just feel sorry. I don’t know what for, and not for anyone besides myself, yet I feel so lost. So empty. How can you be so much better than me at this? Do you not feel these things? Do you not miss me? Am I just so stuck in memories that don’t even register in your mind? Why do I have such angst? So much longing for so much yet some days you don’t even exist in my mind. Why do you live so much inside of my being and why don’t I live inside of yours? I just want to talk to you. But I really don’t. I don’t want to see you or think about you but I do so much. I know your life is probably going swimmingly, and your struggles exist. But to you, this isn’t a struggle. But just a part of the past that seems like such a blur. Maybe I bought into it all too much and it resonated deep within my being. However, it doesn’t change the fact to me, you are so present, so real. And to you, I’m nothing. I really wish that I could go back and change all of this. To change going on here, change meeting you, and change missing you. If I never came here, I’d have never met you and I used to be so blessed by that fact but now, it’s just a curse. I wish I had thought for a second, maybe this isn’t that important and just dropped it. It’d be some other girl, a random person and probably just the same thing, but it wouldn’t be you. It wouldn’t be you who I want to see and just talk to you, it’d be someone who’s so distant to me, that it’d be a faded blur of a memory, a time before now that doesn’t matter.
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